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Don't understand what "onederland" is.

I have had a similar situation. I had the original band done in Feb 2004. My highest wt was 280, I started to process at 267, day of banding I was 240, I lost down to 208 pretty rapidly but then lost momentum and stablized out at 220. Was so ashamed of gaining that I quit going in for fills. By end of 2005 was at 230. In 2007 was having reflux and forced to go back to see doc. She was extremely harsh with me. Why don't people who have never had weight issues understand that criticism of obsessive overeaters is never constructive and always harmful. Turns out my band had slipped and had to be repaired. Got a fill right after that. Still didn't lose wt, and again ashamed to go back. Gained to 235-240, joined Weight Watchers in Jan 2008, lost 15 lbs right away, then fell off wagon and gained it back and although I kept going to meetings for 2 yrs, just never could master the hunger (both real and head). Ihave an extremely stressful job and harsh working environment but with this economy, I cannot leave. I also support my elderly mother in an assited living facility. My boss is harrassing me about my weight and I am terrified I will lose my job. I called the surgeon's office and asked to see a different doc whom I had met at support groups and who seems very compassionate. I was so desparate I wanted to have my band removed and go to bypass. Just met with new doc on Monday. He wants me to have a fill and meet with a dietician. He says the diet has changed a great deal since I had my band in 04. It now focusses on Hi Pro and Low Carb. So I am going to do that. Will give it a try. I am not great at exercise. I find it boring (aerobics) I like lifting weights. But currently am too poor to afford a trainer. I previously had some luck with Wii and am having my son in law come over this weekend to help me re appropriate my spare bed room as an exercise room with my treadmill, yoga mat and Will. And I am here at this website to garner moral support. So "sheer frustration" I will be there for you and hopefully you will return the favor.