anng

Hi! I just had my first fill this week, and interestingly enough I had trouble explaining why it was making me a nervous wreck. I also have spent most of my career life working in mental health, and I thought about it and realized that it just must be easier for us to recognize and express the fear out loud...It has been an interesting week since the fill! I am really aware that my whole relationship with food has to change now because I am pretty restricted as to how much I can eat, no matter how good it tastes! I love the fact that I feel physically better, but I miss just tasting stuff with abandon and not worrying about if the next mouthfull will feel like a golf ball has just entered and taken up residence in my esophagus!!! My first reaction is to swallow, but all that does is add a big gulp of air and the golf ball gets bigger. Not exactly the response I was looking for..... Try looking at it this way......You have just thrown away your very favorite and most comfortable defense mechanism that just plain wore out. It has probably been with you forever and you have no idea where you even got it. Now you get to go shopping and pick out a new one that is up to date and will bring out the very best in you. What you pick out is completely up to you and you and nobody else and it will be all yours. At least this time you get to choose willingly! Ann :clap2: