Thank you so much for getting back to me! I had to sleep on all that information I found on this site! I've weighed the pros and cons. I feel so torn like I should be able to lose this weight on my own with hardwork and dieting. This surgery really shouldn't even be a question for me though. I am in the beauty industry and since joining my selfesteem has plummeted! It's like I am waiting to live my life now instead of enjoying life! I was just invited to run a booth for a rollerderby game and to my best friend's 30th birthday party and my thought process was something like " oh gawd, I don't want everyone to see me this fat." It is a huge struggle to go to any gatherings because of those feeling. I'm always thinking "I'll do it next year, I'll be thinner." I am a grazer and always seem to have a sweet tooth. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and bought keebler Cookies.. which I try never to do.. I ate the whole carton before I got home! I can't say no to food in front of my face.. even in front of others. I make myself sick without a lapband! My number one deciphering reason for having this surgery, over appearance and building some of my confidence back up, is for my daughter. She deserves a mom that has more energy and who will be here for her as long as I possibly can be. Also to lead by example. I feel that having been overweight at such a young age limited some of my opportunities in my life. I want to teach her healthy eating habbits, eating in smaller portions, and to make sure she is healthy and has every opportunity at her doorstep! There are so many more important things to concern yourself with than weight in this life. I don't want her to ever feel this burden! @Liese why would you have said no way? I understand now that you're seeing results your happy with your decission, but was it because of your recovery or not seeing enough results?
Your comments are much appreciated!