Wow, maybe I am actually going to change. I have never started a blog before, let alone actually write on it. I am getting really close to getting a surgery date, next week I see the surgeon. I realize that it is becoming real for me now and I am getting nervous. I am even having trouble losing the 12 pds I need to lose before seeing him next Tues. I hope that I can get motivated and really do it this time. Old habits die hard.....