I'm 3 1/2 months out. I had complications so things are a little mixed up and I've never been "on track" since. To calculate my weightloss, it's been difficult because I gained a bit being on tpn from my leak so I had to lose weight twice. So I decided to calculate from my all time highest weight, which was in November. I've lost 52 pounds from my highest weight. My leak really messed up the process for me, I can't really enjoy the loss of what I have had since surgery because I gained then had to lose it again,,it's just messed up. I'm having a hard time and keeping it quiet out of fear of being lashed with a whip...I have a hard time hearing the truth but I consider myself a positive person most of the time.
I don't track well, I'm losing weight but I eat what I like,,but lay easy on carbs..breads and pasta and such. I excercise like a maniac. I got fussed at by the doc because I haven't been tracking my protein, water or anything. I joined myfitnesspal but only logged 3 times. I'm not good at tracking at all. I'm in therapy we discuss my disorganization as well as my head hunger. I have a tendency to overeat just because..it's not that I'm still hungry because I'm full,,I just can't keep my brain from telling me to eat something again. I am struggling and have decided to come clean in hopes to get support. I consider myself a true addict of food and before I mess this up, I really need help. I know what I need to do but am having such a hard time with motivation or something. I can't figure it out..the answer is simple but I ignore it. Any suggestions would be so helpful.