peacequeen

I don't mind saying,,you're hot!

Start challenge weight 215 Current Weight 207.6 Goal 198

After adopting 2 children and 16 long years of trying to have a baby, my niece finally gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. There have been alot of complications. We found out today that the baby has stage 3 IVH (intra-venticular hemmorage). I don't know alot about this condition but I was told it is in a serious stage. I'm reaching out for prayers please. Also, if anyone can tell me more about this condition, I'd like to hear about it.

Thanks, everyone. I know that God is the ultimate healer and I have to just put this in His hands.

I had read several articles online but this one was very thorough and much easier to understand. As hard as it was to take in, thanks for sharing the link.

SW 215 Goal 198 Today 209 Pds to go 11 Doubt I will make it but who knows Maybe bootcamp again?

I actually tried this week. But didn't do very well with only .2 lost,,but it's a loss so I'll take it. SW 215 GW 198 Weight this morning 210.4

Start weight 215 Current weight 210.6 Goal weight 198 (I changed it from 199 because that will be 100 pds lost) Not sure I'll make it by halloween but gonna try.

I haven't been on here alot lately, I've been really depressed. I have alot going on at home and it's been almost more than I can take. I've let myself fall completely off track. Looking at some of my past posts,,I seen it coming but didn't really try to do anything about it. I am in therapy and I take anti depressants and anxiety meds..this has been something I've struggled with for years. It got worse when my parents were killed in an accident. I need to lay it all out there so I can get as much feedback from yall as I can. I'm willing to even hear the negative or get fussed at..I don't care. Just let me have it. I've quit using myfitnesspal, I'm eating everything I shouldn't eat and drinking sodas. I had 2 full slices of pizza..thick crust within half hour, not taking my vitamins regularly, not drinking my water and not getting in my protein as well as slacking with exercise. I'm a complete mess and I'm just trying to get my head around why I can't stay on track. I haven't gained any weight, I'm still losing but I know it's not the way the plan is supposed to work..and it's just a matter of time before my sleeve gives up on me. I think I may have stretched my sleeve a little..or alot and was wondering if it's too late for me? Can I get back some of the restriction I once had? I know there are varied opinions as to whether you can stretch the sleeve but in the beginning I could only eat 1/2 piece of thin crust pizza,,now I can eat 1-2 full slices with thick crust. I know something is very wrong..and I've done this to myself and I feel really ashamed and disappointed in me. Can I shrink my sleeve back and start over? I know it's probably a silly question but I really don't know. For all of you who have said..I ate a burger or pizza,,is that ok? No, it's not ok..I do know this..I've just lost control.

Thank you, everyone for the outpouring of warm wishes for me. I really do appreciate it and needed to hear positive words of encouragement. My parents passing has been a while but was one of the events in my life that really set off my depression and anxiety. So I have been in consistent therapy since then for that issue as well as every other issue I've faced including my eating disorder. I know it has had lingering effects on me and I have just taken it one day at a time (as the song goes) to help get through it. I wonder sometimes if I made the right choice of surgery considering my mental stability,,not that I'm crazy but just the ups and downs that come with dep. and anx. I failed my first psych eval but passed the second,,not sure I was completely honest in the second one because I wanted the surgery so bad. I do love my sleeve and not sure I could go through with bypass. I think my sleeve is doing what it's supposed to but I think I'm abusing it right now. Each one of you have given very good advice. I'm going to try going back to the basics (again) and I know I definitely need exercise. I haven't just been lying around, I do keep busy but I know it's not the same as putting effort in to break a sweat and get that heart rate pumping. I see my therapist today,,and yes he has experience working with people with eating disorders. He sees several other patients who have had wls so he's really familiar with the process and what goes along with it..but there's only so much he can do. I know it's up to me to actually follow through with the suggestions he makes and work on the game plan he has set forth for me. I'm really going to try harder, I agree that a support group of some sort would probably benefit me. Going to look into that right away. Thank you all again.

Through tears,,I'm just thinking,,I wish I had a love button on this thing because your response is so perfect. Thank you, OTR.