Hello my new friend, I am 38 years old and have been overweight my whole life and as a kid I was "big boned" haha. I truly understand how you feel. I struggle with failure issues. I have posted scriptures in hopes to get it into my thick skull but honestly I think God is leading me to this. As long as we live in these imperfect conditions and bodies we will struggle (some of us more than others). My mom is overweight also and unfortunately I got some eating habits from her (emotional eating, stress eating). She was born and raised in Germany, very poor and food makes her happy. She is now very unhealthy (actually in hospital as i write this). She has asthma, high blood pressure, diabetes and anxiety disorder. I am headed for same if I dont get my weight under control. Thanks for listening. I have my initial dr appt 1/11 with my primary to discuss Lap Band. I pray she is on board with me. Take care and I will pray for us every night ....................now if only I could learn how to do the ticker thingy