Stevee

I don't know if I’m looking for advice or what. But here is my story. I was banded in October of 2007; in the year that followed I got really sick from fills being too tight like 3 times. Finally in December of 2008 I had all the liquid removed from my band and have lived like that for a year now. I didn’t gain any weight back over that year until the past 2 months. L And now I’m so upset I’m almost back to the weight I was the day of surgery. My mom keeps telling me I have to do this for me. I can’t figure out why I don’t have the motivation to do this for me. I feel like if someone told me to do it for them I could, but since it has to be for me I struggle. The month I had my lap band my g/f of 2 years broke up with me, and I guess that could be part of the reason why I failed. I don’t know. After that break up I was in and out of unhealthy relationships until April of 2009 when I met my current girlfriend. And honestly I have never been happier in a relationship in my life; however I still look in the mirror and hate what I see. So I have to ask myself am I really happy? For once I’m with someone that loves me for me, every curve, every roll, every blemish, no matter what she is madly in love with me… so WHAT IS MY DEAL? Ugh! I just called my doctor, I haven’t seen him in a year, I have an appointment on December 10th to get a fill. I wanted to go today but I owe him money and can’t pay him until the 10th. Thanks for listening… sorry I was rambling, just needed to get some things off my chest I guess. Any advice or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.

just swinging thru for an update. i weighed this morning and i'm down to 256! another 5 lbs lost since my fill! woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!! i dont think i really have restriction since he only added 1cc to the 2ccs i already had. but somehow i have tricked my brain into thinking that i have restriction! its awesome!

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wow wow wow! where have you, fanny, been allllll my life. i hope everyone reads this post! u r a savior! so tonight was liquids, i had a v8 after my fill. then at 6 i had a cup and a half of egg drop soup. and a glass of milk. now im sippin water. i dont feel starving. of course i could eat but ill survive. you will be a big part of why i suceed this time! thank you so much!

well i got my fill and i feel great! i had a wake up call though. they said at my last appointment in december of 2008 i was down to 237! i dont remember ever bein 230 anything! but any ways 2 weeks ago i was up to 270 and as of today i was 261! woo hoo! im sooooooo excited!

im with you randy! i've made that same decision! i'm doin this for me now! and i'm ready to succeed! for me.. not for anyone else... for me! so i'm with ya! lets do it!

Thank you Sue! So i get the fill and still dont fill restriction, are you saying just keep my head in it and eat like i do feel restriction?

omg! today is my "first fill" on my 2nd try at this journey. i'm so excited but so nervous at the same time! I just keep telling myself I can do it I can do it I can do it!!!!!! any last minute words of advice? :scared2:

CONGRATS! i think the title is very clever... its what made me click it to read!

I was banded Oct 2007. I had a lot of trouble with fills got sick a lot for a year, finally in Dec of 08 i had my band drained and have not went back since. I lost 20 lbs and maintained the loss until 2 months ago. I've gained it back, almost back to my starting weight again. :sad: here are my after the band pics, but still considered before pics since i have not lost any weight....

ok i am sooooo proud of myself. if you read the previous posts then you know that i have no fluid in my band and havent for a year. i get my second first fill next thursday, so i've been trying to practice eating like i have restriction, cutting portion size etc. well this morning on my way to work i was like hmm i think i'm hungry. so i stopped at sonic. i love love love their toaster breakfast sandwiches and tator tots... well bandsters... i ordered apple slices and went on my merry way. I TURNED DOWN THE TATOR TOTS he tried to up sell me! woo hoo!!!! i'm calling this an NSV! wha wha! i'm doin a lil dance! lol i ate my apple slices with fat free carmel sauce and i'm feeling great! they were quite tasty if i do say so myself!

thank you sue! i wonder if my doc would let me do that, go in for weigh ins. i hope i can someday love my band, i never have since i got it. :smile: and that sucks

thank you destin. i just have to see if my insurance will cover a therapist. i work for a different company now and the insurance here doesn't cover anything that has to do with weight. so yeah... i dunno. before i didnt talk to anyone about what i was going through. this time i'm dong it different. i'm talking to my mom a lot, plus on here, and my girlfriend is a tremendous help as well. i'm feeling better about it all this go round. maybe when i had my surgery i just wasnt ready yet. ya know?

thank you for your advice, im gonna check into a therapist.

thank you for your positive thoughts.. its helping me get motivated

welcome girl! glad to hear you are doing great!