Wow, that really sucks! It is such an easier and more enjoyable process when you have a good support system in place. I also became very obsessed before my surgery, but I was lucky that my husband at least pretended to be interested! You will need to have a good support system in place to be successful, so even if you don't get it at home make sure you are getting it somewhere. The on-line support can be amazing, so hang in there!