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Good morning. I've been up at attem..did a four mile walk with hills. I'm going to try to get serious. I can't believe how I've been eating...when I'm not hungry or anything. Sheesh...it is like I've lost my mind.

I've been hiding out and eating like a pig. What is going on with me, I don't know. I feel really out of control. I'm going to try to take the reins in today and get my butt in gear with the eating.

Wow, so inspriational to read your posts. I would love to have a rockin body...but probably not going to happen. I like the musclesI have now...but need to get more. I have been battling with some down thoughts regarding being able to run. That was my goal..but after doing it hit and miss this summer, my body just won't take it. I'm having some back problems and running isn't helping it. So, I'm walking...which I love!! I'm torn on the fill issue...Tonya, you're so good about it. I am afraid of getting to full and having a problem. Keep me informed on how you do with this last one..cuz I'm considering one more. They said I have a 1/2 cc or so go to be full...whatever that means...but those fractions maybe will make a difference. I'm doing okay..but I have my binges on white chocolate...my bad. I haven't lost an oz tho...don't know what the magic key is...but I'm keeping on.

I do understand what you are saying. I guess I was taking a page out of Weight Watchers...weigh once week. I get crazy with the once a day thing unless it was like it was back in the beginning of this process. That being said, I'm trying to focus on eating properly...low carb...good proteins, low fat. I've been at the water consumption for most of the time anyway..no biggie there. I haven't walked for a few days but back at it tomorrow. Just sore from some of the work I did over the weekend. Playing carpenter. Keep up the good work all. Lets do it!

You guys inspire me. I've been in and out and not following my eating program very well. But have been exercising pretty regular. Just no movement on the scale. I couldn't weigh in every day...it would make me crazy. Do you think it helps more or less? I remember in the first year I was at it several times a day but I could see some changes. I'm going to try to get serious about eating on program and with the right proportions. I gotta get after it again!

Congrats to you on your new pregnancy!! I would think with running after kids you'd drop weight in no time. Hi Confused...welcome to our group...I've not tried muscle milk. I use EAS brand of protein powder..vanilla and just add stuff to it. Lots of people use different things. I think you have to read what is in it and see if it is the good stuff. I used to, in the olden days, use Slim Fast..well, when I got the band, I started reading labels and I think slim fast is mostly sugar. Congrats on your new port and your new journey.

i"m not doing to well with my eating and working out. Seems this is circular with motivation. Good for a week or two, then off. I'm down in the dumps about it. But I'm not giving up. I was laying in bed and thinking to myself, "is this it?" Do I try forever and have that feeling that I'm not quite what I should be or do I settle? I don't want to settle. And I'm SOOOO afraid if I relax for too long, I will gain. Didn't they say somewhere that the typical lapbander loses 60% of their goal weight? Is that just some crap I have grabbed onto for an excuse. I'm afraid to get another fill. That episode with the reflux and all was daunting. But maybe just a fraction....this is driving me crazy...what if-n. Help!!

Hi all, Seems we all, me included, are missing our support group here. I'm going to try to do better. I'm still working out like crazy but the scale isn't shifting. I'm going to try this week to not eat late at night..I usually get home about 7:45 at night and then have dinner, then to bed...I know, BAD. But a habit, none the less. So, I'm going to take some Protein drinks to work and try to do them between 5-6 and see if I can get myself right. (HA) I had a bad episode with my diverticulosis and that really laid me low for a couple of days last week. I need to get my Fiber more regular (pardon the pun) and am working on it as well. But that did trigger about a three day depression as everything hurt inside and I was really tired from a few night lack of sleep. I'm doing better now but just a reminder that things need to continue to change. How are all you doing? Sunshine, how did you tear your cuff? And where did you vacation? Another cruise? I"m jealous, whatever.

Hi all, Been doing pretty good. Exercise is killing me. My DH and I have been doing some interval walk/running..and then there is the hill. It is good going down..but up is a bit more of a challenge. It is definately easier with him getting up with me in the morning (cuz I would have just stayed in bed this morning). But I'm stiff and sore. I didn't get on the scale this week, yet, as its TOM so I just skipped it. But have been eating pretty good. Juno..5 week challenge? Tell me more. Sunshine..vacation!! whoo hoo Vicvic--welcome. Get a fill...that is the key. I'm still toying with getting one. I still PB about once a week...so I can't make up my mind.

Hi team. I'm sorry I've been awol...I have got a new addition online (Farm Town) and I just seem to go there rather than here, where I really need to be. I'll work on it. Sounds like you all are doing pretty well. I see some weight loss, but still the struggle. I'm with you on both. Had a pleasant surprise when I stepped on the scale for the first time in two weeks..and was down about 8 from the last weigh in--three weeks ago. Not a new low for me as I'm still trying to get the 10-15 pounds off from when I had the totally unfill..but I definally have some motivation this morning. On a good note..workouts are doing well. My DH has decided to get up with me most mornings and we walk/job together..that helps me when I want to stay in bed. Plus he is faster than me so I have to step it up a notch. He, however, didn't get up this morning (but mondays are good starting days for me...haven't you heard that before? Keep on truckin gang...we can get there.

Why I overeat...I was on a site here about a year, maybe a year and a half ago...they were talking about "emotional" eating. I've thought and thought...well, if I have any emotion, I eat. So that didn't make sense. But then one lady mentioned entitlement-- As in I reward myself with food. And the more I thought about it, I thought that it is. That is me. I feel that I've worked so hard I deserve... My DH eats that, I should too. I walked so far, I can eat.... Then someone said, why don't we feel we deserve good health? Or time to workout? Or just reward ourselves with time...to do self care. And that really struck a cord with me. My DH will go walking when the house is a disaster..I can't. He can put aside the must do, or should do and do his fun stuff. I really struggle with that. When I realized I have an entitlement issue (only surrounding eating) I say to myself that I deserve an hour to walk. I deserved..whatever. I've been better, NO PERFECT by any means about giving myself time to take care of myself. So, the question is why hasn't my weight come down? Well, in reality, it has some. Just not bunches. But I still think I've been successful. Now, other stuff...yes, I thought this would be easier..but then I remember that most lapbanders only lose 60% of their weight this way. And that is smack dab where I'm at..60%. So, I keep telling myself that last 40% is going to come off the old fashioned way...hard work and minding my eating. Which I'm marginal at!! HA But I like the comments here and the activity. Lets keep it up! ME too.

I feel that there has been a lack of progress as well. But then I have to remind myself that it can't always be about weight. I have way way more physically fit. I can on any of my horses now without a ladder! I feel better. I have a more rompin sex life!! I get compliments. I like to shop for clothes. I (WE) have to try to not get too discouraged over the numbers. I'm not happy that this 10 pounds is back and I'm not motivated to lose it. Well, not consistently anyway. But this seems to be a good week!! I've logged 8.5 miles in two days, walking. That feels good.

Hi everyone. I'm still hanging in there...need to get on the scale this morning and I've not been watching what I've been eating.. last week was the first time since banding that I avoided the scale. Not going to let myself do that again this week. I walked this morning but I'm so sporadic...I wish I could be more consistent..in all things. Juno...funny, some times I think you just had your baby. I'm sure you don't feel that way! What is up with the rest of you?

how do they figure out the esophogas is dialated? Just a guess or is there a test? I'm hit and miss on the walking/running/workout bit. If I ever get regular I think I'd be on top of it but...geez. I'm not sure how to get motivated. I haven't even weighed in this week (I don't think I've ever purposely missed.) Need my head examined...

Hey all...been away for a while. Meetings. But I did hit the road this morning and did my four mile walk. Not quite energetic to run today..but maybe this week sometime. My eating is all over the map. I'm going to try to focus and get with it.

Sounds like we all need to get focused next week. I"m game...shall we do it together?

Juno, that is terrific. I'm being lazy this week..but I might fit in some walking. Next week though I need to up the anti. I just got back from a "girlfriends" weekend at a hot springs resort. IT was so fun and relaxing. But the kids in the room next door partied all night..so my internal close is messed up..so I didn't sleep at all last night (in my own bed). Sheesh... Snow is melting but we still have some huge drifts. I head out Wed-Fri for a retreat related to my work...another hot springs...some days are just good!! I am trying to convince myself that I can hit the pool with all those others...Strangers I have no problem with..my peers, that is a bit tougher.

Tonya you are beautiful. NOthing like a resort trip to make you have that extra glow! Snowed in the past two days...couldn't go anywhere. Not so bad the first day but was/is getting on my nerves today. WE just did our first trip out...so should be able to get into town tomorrow for a meeting. We have drifts over 10 foot tall. Tonya, I tell you this to extend your savoring of your hot tropical vacation!!

Day two of the pouch test...going good. Sometimes my resolve amazes me...where does it go on the other days?

Yep, it is quite the racket I think, but they have you as a captive audience...no one else does it in the area. Got my appointment for 9 tomorrow. I've been eating really bad. I'm starting the five day pouch diet......I need to rein myself in and that seems to work for me. If I can manage it for the week, then I usually get back on track for a while.

I did good yesterday..went out and ran a mile, then walked two. I felt really good. I haven't run in years and years and only then because I had to. But, when I've had to, that has been when I've lost weight and felt fit. I did good all day and then ate like a pig at dinner. Raviolis...geez..I know that isn't on my list of good things. I'm losing my mind. I really need to get that fill. I think in the morning I will try to schedule it. What the heck...just 200 bucks. HA

Back from the weekend fun...and it wasn't good for my weight. Geez, I need to get a grip or I'm gonna be back in BIG trouble. I'm going to try to eat right every day this week and then schedule a fill for next. That is my plan. And tomorrow, I hit the road again for my walk run.

Juno, sounds like a good idea to me. I am being so cautious...but I think I will schedule another fill soon. I did so well with the 8cc's for about 10 months before things went south. I'm at 7cc's now (10cc band) and feel I can eat just about anything. I like knowing that I can't eat certain foods and that keeps me on track better. I think I will be even more careful with it tho. I will be out of town for the rest of the week so you all keep plugging away. Tonya, have a terrific time next week. We will want to hear all about it and live vicariously through you. We just had another 2 inches of snow yesterday..*&%^#$#*@)#&

Okay, I'm GREEN with envy. Cancun sounds delicious. I could go for a week on the beach. But great for you to include exercise with it. Sometimes I think it is fun to work out at those resorts. I guess a change of scenery. I'm sure you will spend time in the water as well. We were supposed to do Cancun a couple of years ago but that fell through. Bummer. Anyway, sounds so relaxing and WARM.

For different reasons, I had all the fill taken out about a month ago. I was having reflux so bad I couldn't keep much down. My stomach had gotten so swollen that I finally made an appointment with the doc. I had the fill out (8cc's) for two weeks and put on 10 pounds. I sort of allowed myself to go a bit wild. I actually at a sandwich, something I haven't done since getting banded. I got a refill back up to 7 cc's and am struggling with maintaining my portions, etc. I will be getting another fill next month...I'm putting it off due to some traveling and activities that I just don't want any complications. I did feel an enormous amount of restriction with my refill. That lasted about a week and a half. It was great.