So I went for my psyc eval...and now I feel worse! Eek!
I work with a lot of mental health agencies so I was well aware of things they might ask, screen for etc. Aka. why do you want this surgery, are you of sound mind, do little voices in your head tell you are fat etc :crying:
Anyway, before I even got started the psych told me that they didn't have documentation that I was being treated for high cholesterol so that set me up for a bad mood. Great. (The MD office has all of this!) But this is minor. I can fix it after the appt.
So first thing she says is that she has reviewed all of my screenings (that I did right before the meeting) and she sees that I'm a little depressed. What? I said no, I'm must 100 pounds overweight and not as happy as I could be. (This is not going to be good)
Then it was like everything I said she picked up on something and took it into a negative spin. I was afraid! And I'm a social worker! So I knew her techniques but when you're in the hot seat! It was bad.
So I've been "dieting" my whole life, know so much about nutrtion I should have been a dietician and have doing WW on and off for 10 years! I know what I should do but it just doesn't stick for me in the long term.
So she asked if I crave any foods and I said if I'm not on a super strict diet like atkins then no, not really I can resist but if I've been on atkins for a week and a donut walks by then I want one. So then she got stuck on a donut. She finally said she is concerned that I'll be rebellious to my band knowing I can't have certain foods. Now she's got me stuck on that...
Then we talked about how I "wind down" by eating after a stressful day and about how I'm an emotional eater and she is concerned about that with the band. I don't emotionally eat other times, ie. sad, stressed etc. But now she's got me worried to death about that.
It just went on and on. I wasn't depressed when I walked in but now am kind of freaking out because the whole interview basically kept shifting around my words to get the point where by the time I left, I felt like I was going to fail at this too. It was a terrible psych appt. I heard another girl in the other room, much heavier than me, laughing with her psych. I'd hate to see how my psych drills a person heavier than me or who really has depression issues!
Did anyone else have bad experiences like mine? I've really put some thought into what she said but should I let it make me feel like I will fail at this too?
I need some encouragement please.