In December I went to my Bariatric Surgery clinic the first time for 6 appointments which included meetings with nurses, ultrasounds of my liver and other internal bits, oodles of blood tests, and a meeting with a therapist. After meeting with the therapist, and disclosing that I am a compulsive binge eater, I was rejected from the program. They told me that I would need to find a binge eating specialist and be "binge free" for six months. I was devastated. Completely and utterly despondent about not being able to move forward with the surgery right away. I felt like a fool for disclosing my eating disorder and was so pissed at myself for not lying to the therapist. I wonder who gets to almost 300#'s and isn't a compulsive eater? So after wallowing in self pity I manned up and contacted a therapist who specializes in Binge Eating Disorder. I've been seeing her weekly since Dec, and for the past 8 weeks going to an additional 2 hour a week support group. To say that this was a wonderful experience would be an incomplet description of what I've felt going through this process. The therapist I've found "gets it". She is amazing and has truly been helpful in my treatment. Even just admitting to myself that I had an eating disorder was something I could never have contemplated before I met with her. And the thought of "recovery"? Not even in my vocabulary. Now I see the real reasons for why I binge eat- dealing with feelings of depression, anxiety, and having grown up in a home without 'food stability' (ie: long term neglect and poverty) had lead me to form an extremely unhealthy relationship with food. I've gotten so much out of the support group too! This is not OA, but a supervised group therapy session conducted by my therapist. I've made so many connections with others, and have found relief and solace that I'm not the only one struggling with BE.
So, last week I went back to the Bariatric Surgery clinic, and had to repeat the whole process of testing. But this time I was 30#'s lighter, and could honestly answer the questions from the therapist. I've been approved to meet with the surgeon on June 2nd and this process is actually moving forward! I'm so relieved, and so happy that I've got some good skills under the old belt now to help prevent me from bingeing after I'm banded. Just thought I'd share a little bit of my journey thus far with you all. I know many of us are told to do a 6 month diet prior to surgery, (which I was not required to do) but I was wondering if anyone else was required to see a binge eating specialist? What was your experience like?