Please, please don't give up! There are other people who love you and need you to be there for them just as they are there for you.Look around you at the faces of the people you love.Do you want them to suffer the grief and the pain that you are now going through?I did't I wanted to live for them.I was banded on Oct. 25,2010. I started my preop diet on Oct.11, since then I have lost 39 pds.I feel so much better mentaly and physically than I ever have.The grief of losing someone can destroy you and your family if you let it.Try to be strong grieve for your mother,remember the love and know she would not want her child to follow her into the grave.This is from a mother who has lost a child and believe me your mother would want you to live.So take each day one at a time and try not to conquer the whole world at once and you can do this.