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You are not bad, it is only bad if it becomes a habit. I call this an opps day, we all have them at sometime in this journey the key is getting right back on track and remember this is not a DIET but a life style change and it takes a life time to keep reminding ourselves of where we were and where we never want to go back. I think you will be just fine. Keep doing what your dong and good luck to you.

Well good evening friends. For those of you not on FB the morning was rocky. I got up at 4am and was at my desk by 530am for a 7am meeting. I had to prep for that meeting and another meeting that was at noon. The first meeting ran over by 30 minutes making me late to pick up Mama to take her to day care and it was on. She was refusing to go and I was overwhelmed with my work plate and did not respond as appropriate as I should. Yep, I fussed at her and she cried and pouted all the way to day care. Thus my post on FB stating I had no more patience for the day. I felt like an ass, fussing at a demented lady does not make one feel very good. I did get my stuff ready for Medical staff meeting, my secretary was ready to have a nervious breakdown and I prepped my doctor and on we went with 3 additional afternoon meetings with Directors. I feel like I ran a marathone todoay in high heels and a dress but I did it and picked up Mama at 5pm ON TIME! and Made it through the day without wringing someone's neck. Did I forget to mention during all this I tried to eat some fish, asparagus and sweet potato and ended up throwing up in my waste basket under my desk. I hate when that happens and I know better than to eat quickly when i am stressed. Carole sorry you had a bad night but to be expected with that barium, hope today has went much better, I really joyed meeting Jack, he is a supper guy and he seemed to enjoy himself. Janet hope you and hubby are enjoying the free trip. I am jealious, I would love to walk on a beach or just have some free time to spend with my hubby or even my self. oh well! Mini and Cawanna, hope your both doing good, Mini I really love the W and D. It is exactly what I want but I want to stack them. A dream right now, all the extra goes for day care and sitters. Come on powerball, make me a winner. Teri, hope your day is going good, I really enjoyed Franc, he is very witty and has a great sense of humor. Dee Teri is correct you are our Angel on earth, I know no one who gives so much of themself so selflessly. I admire your dedication to your family and others. big hug to you my friend and I hope someday we can meet in person. I know Teri has a trip planned later in the summer to meet you. you will enjoy Teri she is an exceptional lady. Well if I forgot anyone, I am sorry. Love you all and I will try to be good. I did eat some sliced deli turkey and a cheese stick for dinner and it stayed down.

Awesome and such a good deal! I love them, I want a set to stack.

Janet please do not be sad, our lunch was just as awesome as I knew it would be. Carole and Terri are both wonderful people. We chatted for 4hours, wow how time flies andJack and Franc hit it off and chatted as much as we did. We each have a picture but I am at Mama's until 740 so it will be a while before I can post. This just made us want everyone to get together some day. Just an awesome day and Carole and Terri I may make myself suck with my desert Brought home. Yes I was the only one who ordered Desert and it was decadent . More later, my trip was shorter than anyone's took me just a little over an hour.

Finally home for the day, we had leader day today at work. Good day where all leaders are focused in our Mission and Vision. This is what I love about working for Catholic Health Care. Today was about the wonderful state of Heath care Reform And how we are going to survive! So excited tomorrow is lunch with Carole and Teri. Janet day at the beach with grand babies awesome! Dee give'm hell!

OK, I just typed for 20 minutes and lost the whole damn post. Ugh, I quit for the night. So frustraing!

Morning, hope everyone has a great Monday. Stressful at work we got our lovely CMS report back and we are working on report, gotta love our governments red tape. Making a pledge today to get back to doing some strength training at home, feeling all squishy these days. Yummy roasted Cajun turkey breast for lunch and small salad. Looking forward to our lunch date girls!

Take me with you, I don't eat much nor do I take up much space these days. Enjoy and have a bite of something yummy for me!

Wow Janet do you realize how many obese people that is 3, so we have lost at least 3 people between us. How cool is that... We rock ladies, and there is no stopping us! Woo Hoo!

Morning all, sitting out on the deck,over cast today. Having coffee. Kids going home today , will miss them. ;-(. Drizzling rain here but sun is trying to sneak out from behind the clouds.

Well my daughter and family are leaving tomorrow, I am sad..and will miss them. It has been exteremly nice these past two weeks to be surrounded by my immediate family during this very stressful time in my life. I have so enjoyed the grand babies and am so glad I took off last Thursday and Friday, we had a wonderful day at the Greenville Zoo on Friday and this morning we went to the open air farmers market DT Greenville. Mama was a grump and swears I tried to kill her by making her walk up a hill! Some days are good here and some are bad but I am muddling through and somedays I am more frustrated than others, but my favorite saying these days is, It is what it is and I can't change it or control it. Looking forward to my time this week with Carole and Teri. and we will post pictures, I love to take pictures so girls get ready I am bringing the camera for some good shots! My stomach is still giving me issues but it is just stress and I have to watch how and what I eat, no newby here and not my first rodeo, so pulling up the big girl panties and coping with it. Janet I just noticed your ticker tonight you are almost at 100 lbs, way to go girl. So proud of you and honestly I am proud of all of us. Look at how many fat people we have lost to date collectively. lol I promise to get caught up with everyone soon, I keep hoping life will let up some and I know it will if I just hang in there a little longer. Really love you guys and really do appreciate all your support.

Well good morning friends, quick flyby! I am off today and tomorrow, thank you jesus! Kids are still here and I wanted to spend a few days enjoying my grand children. Mom has an eye appointment today so the afternoon is shot but I will make the most of the day. She has been a little better the last few days, not sure if she is setteling in or just playing games. CT of head for mom was negative, not a surprise. Necessary expense for what I already knew. She definately needs her meds tweaked, or someone needs to give me some. Band still tight here, I ate well yesterday but I feel like I had an adjustment. I can eat about 2/3 cup at a time, so it seems like all I do is eat all day long. Teri, I will look at your diary sheets today and see if I can suggest anything. Carole I can't wait for next wednesday, still so excited about meeting you and Teri. I have to get caugt up on everyone, sorry I have been missing but life has just been so dang busy and I stay so tired. Gotta run, have to get to mom's before sitter leaves and I need a coffee! lol

Happy Birthday Nicole, hope your day is extra special! My band has also been fickle of late and feeling a little tight. Lost my dad's wedding band today, somehow somewhere it feel off my thumb. I have lost so much weight my rings are falling off. Dang it.

Hi all had a great weekend with my family, my Grand Daughter turned 14 today and it was a good day with family. Here we are: Yes I look tired but it was a great day, an awesome cook out and some awesome Strawberry Cheese cake. It was also my baby Lexius Birthday and not sure she was happy with the situation at all. lol

Hi ladies, I read several pages to try and catch up. Carole, your constant reflux concerns me, something is causing it and it is not good for you or your band. Many people who have Gastric Reflux (GERD) and an adjustable gastric band often will see a reduction in their reflux symptoms. In some people, however, they may begin to notice gastric reflux after their adjustable gastric band is placed. This could be a sign that it needs an adjustment, but if it's persistent, here are ten tips on how to deal with gastric reflux: Do not lie flat or bend over soon after eating. Do not eat late at night or just before bedtime. Rinse your pouch with a glass of water an hour before bedtime. Avoid foods or drinks are more likely to cause reflux: (rich, spicy, fatty and fried foods; chocolate; caffeine; alcohol; some fruits and vegetables, such as oranges, lemons, tomatoes, peppers; peppermint; or carbonated drinks. If you smoke, quit smoking. Reduce stress. It increases reflux symptoms. Exercise to promote digestion. Raise the head of your bed. Avoid aspirin, aleve and ibuprofen at bedtime. Tylenol is Okay. Take an antacid (Pepcid Complete, Prevacid, Prilosec, Nexium, etc.) before retiring, or see your healthcare provider about other over-the-counter heartburn medications. Mini, I think a mothers stress is never over, you are eating, Carole has reflux. I am having pains so bad some nights i almost can't stand it. I hope your daughter finds her inner strength and leaves her husband. Sadly all you can do is be there to pick up the pieces, listen and love her. Try to find a constructive outlet for your frustration. Remember eating and hurting you does not help her, I know how food comforts us, I have many days lately where junk goes down much easier than protein or healthy foods but I am trying not to go back down that road. Know we all love you and are here for you. Dee, it saddens me to read about your lab, I lost my baby several years ago. I held my Alex as he took his last breath, it hurt so bad but he was always there for me and i was determined to be there for him as he left this world. My fur Babies mean as much to me as my real children, they bring me such a sense of peace. Big hug to you my friend. Teri, Carole, Janet, Dawn and Cawanna, I am here and I am so sorry I have been absent. It has been a very hard couple of weeks. I do good most days but Mom is fighting me with ever fiber of her being. I hate to even write this but she has been so mean and said so many hurtful things over the past few weeks it has really taken it's tool on my emotions. Daily she tells me how horrible I am and how much she hates me, I know, I really do know that this is not my mother but it still hurts so much. Every time I know it is time for me to go over to her house, my stomach hurts so bad, it doubles me over in pain. I went back on my antacid medications and have tried to cut back on acid causing foods. I got on the scales tonight and oh wow, down two pounds, not sure how. I have been trying to focus on eating but some days are better than others. My daughter and grand children are here visiting and this helps some, but reality sets in and than there is Mom. I know this all will pass but I am finding it increasingly difficult to cope with my resentment and feelings Mom dredges up. She is manipulative and knows how to push my buttons. I think this is what I hate most because I know she has dementia but sometimes she is not confused and just down right damn mean and spiteful. I pray every night and hope God will hear my prayers and help me find some peace and make sense of all of this Chaos. Carole and Teri, I will be there on the 26th come hell or high water, I need to do something for myself and I am looking forward to this so much. thank you all for allowing me still to participate, I will get back to myself one day, I have faith and having you all as friends means a lot to me. Hugs all around!

Quick note, I am OK, we'll sorta. Everything came to a head last weekend and Diane let everyone know how she felt. Now the quilt handset in andI have no idea how we are going to afford this,soI just pray And have faith that God will provide and show me the way. We have hired a sitter for nights and mom starts Day care today. Wish me luck, my daughter and I are taking her this morning! Having issues with eating , not good , think I may be getting an ulcer. Go figure! My grandchildren are her this week, no did not even know my daughter or me yesterday, guess I am Cinderella again! ;-(! I am trying to take life one day at a time but some days I feel like I am walking on a bed of coals barefooted! Thank you all for your support, Teri and Carole I still plan to be at our lunch!

So happy able to reach our thread from my phone. I had to click the link in the message Janet sent me so my phone new I belonged. ;/) Well date nite was a fiasco, I guess all the stress of the week, too much alcohol, hubby not being totally honest with me sooo it did not go well. All my calories yesterday were alcohol related, very thirsty today, already drank 3 bottle of Water and yes Teri I logged every little drink! Lots to do today, brother going home, daughter coming next week and prepping for Mom next week. BBL have a great Saturday!

Oh and have I told you that I love the fact we are DRAMA free, this is so nice and so calming to come on her and only read about each of your days and how you are doing and how we can support each other. Thank you Janet, you ROCK!

Hey friends, finally caught up, I must confess in all my running around paying all of mom;s bills, making sure she had everything, i forgot to pay my own damn ATT Bill. I fixed it first thing this morning but so damn frustrating. I have automated every bill I can think of so I no longer have to thing about anything and only deposit my pay check. lol I had a very productive day, I hired a Geriatric Case Manager, I meet with her Monday morning at 11am, hopefully she can help me cut through all the BS of Medicare, Medicaid and VA. I got my mom's POA and Medical POA done and also a DHEC DNR in the state of SC. So a few things cleared. have a meeting with the Assitedliving memory care facility on Monday afternoon for the day care to start on Tuesday. After meeting with Mom's doctor on Thursday and she laid down the law, I have pushed the boys and they have crumbled. The older brother realizes Mom needs placement, the baby is still clinging onto hope. I just want some normalcy in my life. I realized something this week, I am in a much better place than my brothers, yes it pains me to see mom this way but to me, God forgive me, That is not my Mama. Yes it hurts but we all need to stop thinking of ourselves and realize what is best and safest for mama. Had drinks with BB tonight and he is a frigging mess, my wedding anniversary is tomorrow, 18 years and I guess we will try and Celebrate today if possible, he can't handle it and needs to go home. I want to say suck it up boys. But being the nice little sissy I am I just take over and make things happen. Now Dawn, you have taken the first step, realizing what your doing wrong and now you can make a conscious decision to move in the right.direction. I Had plenty of months like yours and it took me months to wrap my head around the issues.I am definitely an emotional eater and being in my situation it has sucked lately but that is where I love my band. Yes it clamps down but good for it I do not need to be eating when I am such a mess. Mini you are looking so good, proud of your success: Janet so glad the kids got moved, that must be a big load of you, knowing they have such a beautiful new place for there little family. Teri, I here you about my space, I wasn't thinking rationally. That was me knee jerking to a bad situation. I just am tired of all the BS and want some normalcy in my life. Carole, sounds like you have a fickle band, I hope you can get it to calm down. Mine is fickle but I deal with it because I will not have a fill or unfill. Mine is very tight at times when stressed but I just deal and do liquids as I can and than when it is just right I eat what I want and can. That may explain why I am so thin. I hope things get less stressful, hope you and Jack enjoy your new home, sounds so exciting. You know, I am so glad we are back together, this is just awesome and I really appreciate your support. My doctor visit went well, he was so happy with me. He calls me his LB poster, he told me I had lost 111% of my excess body fat and he was so pleased with my results. I go back in 6 months. I also spoke with him about skin removal and he said NO. he said he felt that a total body lift was too risky and I needed to let the vanity piece go. I am going to work on my body image, I feel dressed I look good but I hate myself in a bathing suit or in nothing. I feel like a shriveled up old women with droopy boobs and a flabby ass. Sorry I know that is to graphic but that is how I feel, so back to the head doctor for me. Again, I can never tell each of you how much you mean to me, thank you for allowing me to whine and be part of such an awesome sisterhood. You all rock and I hope and pray someday we can all meet! Peace and out, hubby and I are going to do drinks and a movie, I see popcorn in my future with snow caps. Yummy!

Shelly thanks for the reality check, being at goal for me it is a message to never lose site of why I did this. I appreciate your courage and honestly and you can do this. You did this before and you will find your inner strength to get back to where you want to be. Good luck!

Awesome job, keep up the good work!

Great post AJ we all battle the junk food demon inside especially during stressful times. Even at goal I have days when I battle my demons and old habits creep back in, the key is admitting and knowing when to ask for help. The old AJ and Love would continue to closet eat, the new us admits our flaws and moves forward. Great post!

Hey Teri, I reviewed your dairies on MFP, Looks like you are doing pretty good with choice, Suggestion, your protein needs to be more consistent and toward the high side to lose consistently. My experience with the band has been when I am high on the protein, more of an Atkins type diet between 70-80 gms I lost weight faster. Just a suggestion. Also the French bread from Panara was awesome, I had one yesterday also and it took me a while but it was the best thing I have eaten for a while.