Oregondaisy

I was having a momentary lapse in judgement. I want nothing to do with Allen. I had a long talk with his daughter this evening and it helped a lot. She knows him so well. I didn't eat much again today. Quest bar and a bag of M & M almonds. I have no appetite. I cried all day. Not because I want Allen back, but because I want to spend my life with somone and it's hard when you live in the middle of nowhere. Maybe I'm finally all cried out now.

Yeah, FWB is friends with benefits. If I do that, it will be awhile from now. He needs to suffer more for the things he said to me. I spent quite a bit of time with his brother, when I took him the paint, and he came over last nigh for something else. He told me all of Allen's realtionships end over the exact same problem- money, I could do it without becomming attached bc there are things in his personality, I really can't stand. The best part of our relationship was in the bedroom. THat was good, but sometimes the only thing that kept us together. Oh yeah, and I am still stuck at 139. I think tomorrow I will only do protein shakes and see if I can get that scale to move. 139 is all I see. It's time for a new number.

You could be having esophageal spasms. Are you not in contact wtih your doctor's office telling what you have told us.? Also make sure you thin your soups down. Even a thick liquid can cause problems this early out. Again, if you're experiencing pain, you should contact your docctor.

I am lucky that at my gym, there are nothing but a bunch of us seniors that go around the time I go. I try to get there by 10 but a lot of the times, it's 11 am. I am sure 5-8 am there's a bunch of cute young things in there. I gave the rest of Alllens's stuff to his brother. His brother rents my other house. I like Lance. He's nothing like Allen. No, I don' t like him "that" way. But he's very supportive and he knows Allen so well, so he understands the things I complain about. He told me Allen said he is so in love with me, and he's completely miserable. I am honestly considering a FWB situation here. Got another message from the new guy, but I am having trouble finding things to write to him about. I did fine on my eating today. I am beginning to think I need to do a week of protein shakes to get to 135.

We need a picture of you in your bikini now that you've had your plastics!

My friend had a seizure and was tested for epilepsy which turned out to be positive. She is in her 50's and never knew she had epilepsy. She had never had a seizure before.

Globe! Can you eat nuts? I am not going to send them if you can't eat them bc I love them. I bought them for you but I can't remember if it's on your list of no nos. They are a good source of protein and they are not animal fat, and they are good for fiber. Oh and I forgot to tell everyone, I got my labs back and finally after 7 years of WLS I am no longer anemic. All my labs were very good. My doctor could not believe how low my cholesterol is. Yay for the sleeve!

I suffer from SAD. I have no doubt about it. It rains for months here. I hope this new guy I am writing to cheers me up. I thought he wasn't going to write back bc it took him a few days, but I got a message today. I wish Allen would have gotten all of his stuff cause I am going to have to deal with him just a little bit more.. I ended up not fasting today bc my friend whom I haven't seen in a long time called to go to lunch. I wasn't off on my eating, but I didn't fast. I am going to fast tomorrow . I want 135 badly and I am close.4 lbs away. I never thought I'd be able to lose my regain. I've said this so many times. I am so thankful for 5:2!

Allen is coming to get his stuff soon. I am going to go and hide at my daughters for awhile. I can't believe how much this sucks, even though I know it's for the best. Yesterday morning I talked to him on the phone and I was a mess all day. He called about arranging a time to get his stuff. I hope he can get it all in one day so I don't have to talk to him again. I had no appetite yesterday. My food for the day was a bag of m & m peanuts and a quest bar. It should be really easy to fast this week.

I only use a lap top, not a mobile version so I never have any trouble.

I have no idea what that is, but I am thrilled with my sleeve, over 4 years later. I know you can revise to the DS later if you get the sleeve first.

Globe, I know there are people who eat healthy like you are doing and seem to be doing better. I know Montel Williams is always on TV talking about MS and how he is living with it. I wish there was more we could do to help. I'm glad my care package made you feel good, and I hope the next one has some things you like. * If you want your post deleted, write to *Susan* in a PM and I am sure she would delete it for you. You don' t have to share with the entire board unless that's what you want to do. Personally, I am so glad and feel lucky that you ARE a part of OUR group! I spoke to Allen this morning and it ruined my entire day. I know we aren't right for each other but this is still so hard. For once in my life, I am not eating my way through this depression. In fact today, I had no appetite at all, and I just had a quest bar.

It's pretty common for people in Oregon to have seasonal affective disorder. I have a light I am supposed to sit under, but I never do. I really need to move it to a more convenient spot since I am getting really depressed too. It seems like I am getting too old for this but I have the thought of living the rest of my life alone. I talked to Allen today to ask him when he was going to come and get his stuff, and I have been depressed ever since. I should be able to stay on track tomorrow. I didn't even try today with the baby shower food. I have a ton of left over food too.

I use Sytrax matrix it comes in several yummy flavors. chocolate, and orange cream are my favorite.

I seem to be holding at 139 and now my dd baby shower is tomorrow and I know I'll at least have a chocolate cake pop. I hope I don't dump again. That was awful. Where are you Globe? I'm sure I will tell him that I used to weigh 100 lbs more and see his reaction. I know I will tell him I have to work very hard to not gain it back so I don't appreciate his comments . I basically want to show him our beautiful beaches and then he's on his own.

have you tried mucle milk? I love muscle milk light

GLobe, are you okay out there? We have not heard from you since you shared your news. You know too that the whole board can read our group's posts, even if they can't post in here., I just was not sure if that was what you intended- to share it with the entire site. I blew it with pop corn balls tonight. They made me really sick though. I haven't dumped in a long time. Diarrhea, sweats, nausea, etc. I had to lay down for an hour. I've eaten them before without problems, but I don't think I had enough protein in my system when I ate it today. I hate dumping. It is so awful. I have 2 guys writing to me from POF. I don't like either one of them. One was the fat hater I met the other day. The other keeps writing all about himself, and has not asked one question about me.

I will look the book up on Amazon tomorrow. If it's not too expensive, I will get it for you and send it to you. (((Hugs))) You could always come and stay with me for awhile when you get out. I have a big house and I am all alone. You're my daughter's age. She's a nurse. She needs a new friend. See, you are not homeless.

Looking at before and after pictures really motivate me. If I look at a very rare picture of myself at my highest weight, I can tell myself that it wouldn't take much for me to get into the head space where I would be headed right back there. I get tired of working out. I need to get some new work out dvds so I can learn some new things.

If I stick to Protein and eat low carb, I am never hungry. Don't forget acid can feel exactly like you are hungry. If I don't take my acid blocker , Protonix, I feel like I am starving all the time.

I don't know how I didn't see this thread. Congratualtions! I am so glad you're still here, and you're in our 5:2 group. You have done amazing and the vets forum would not be the same without you.

Sar, I am happy for you! I weigh at night too and i am always excited when my night time weight is lower than I expected it to be. Sometimes it's lower than it was in the morning. That really excites me! It's still going to be hard bc I haven't even talked to him. I told him I was going out of town (bc I didn't want to deal with him) so he still has to come and pick up his stuff.. I am going to call him and tell him I will be gone all day Sat. at my daughter's babys shower so he can get into the garage. I'll take his stuff out of the house and put it in the garage. I'm hoping I don't have to see him or talk to him. I am sure I will have to at some point though. Jane I admire how you're able to put your relationship into perspective.

Wow! All these really heavy posts. I am glad we are all dealing with our issues and not using food to do it. I am really depressed and I miss Allen, But I am doing good not running to get some sort of sweet thing to make me feel better. I am trying to use the opposite tactic. I want to get back to my original goal of 135 so when I finally do see him, he is going to be sorry for the things he said to me that caused the break up. I have so much food in the house bc I cooked for him. I think when they do another food drive, I am going to have a lot to donate. I don't plan to cook a lot for myself. I wonder if it's healthy to live on protein shakes. They are so easy to make, and I hate cooking for just one. This is so hard. I want to call him really badly. It's been 2 weeks now. I know if when it gets to 6 weeks. it will get easier. I have gone through break ups before. Anyway, I hope everyone has a good day. I am going to work out hard at the gym. It helps with stress. Globe I almost have another package ready for you. What is your dianosis that you have to eat this crazy way?

It gets better. It takes awhile. Sometimes, it even takes a few months. Eventually, you'll be thrilled at the weight loss and how you'll be able to eat small portions of healthy foods and feel full.

I love strength training. It's cardio I hate. I need to go somewhere and get a bunch of magazines. It goes faster if I have a magazine. I wish I could afford a trainer all the time.