Oregondaisy

I take Protonix and I am a mess without it. I can't be without it.

I'll be 5 years out at the end of next month. I gained some back and took it back off but it was really hard to do. It takes real dedication to eating right and continuing with exercise becasue it's really easy to gain weight back if you start snacking ,eating between meals and eating dessert.

I'm sorry I've been MIA. Twice at Bill's house I typed out a big long post and hit a wrong key and poof it was gone. I never know what I did wrong when that happens. I am taking my own lap top over there from now on because that's what I am used to. I'm trying to figure out a way to put something on our main 5:2 group page that says we are closed to new members. People should just start another one. I just feel our group can't be added into at this point. Unless several people quit posting completely and it was dead, I see no reason to add more people even though we have 5 pending who want to join. Things are going great with Bill and me. Other than freaking out that I am going to gain weight, everything is just dandy. I can't seem to stay away from the goodies when he has then and that's exactly what got me in trouble last time, when I was in a different relationship. Maintenance is way harder than losing and it just goes on and on and on! Sheryl, have you heard from David? I read that article on food adiction. Scary. Sometimes I am so out of control. There is no way any doctor around here would prescribe Phentermine. My band doctor would if I weren't staying at goal. Right now, I am still hanging in at 135 but I don't think I'll be able to keep it uless I find some motivation for the gym and keep it.

I used vagifem at first when I first got vaginal atrophy. I did a lot of research on bioidentical hormones because I was not ready to give up on sex yet. I've been taking progesterone that is compounded for me by a compounding pharmacy and my estrogen comes from a patch that I change once a week. My mom had breast cancer but my doctor does not feel there is a risk with bioidentical hormones. She said the stuidies they did were on Premerin which is made from horse urine.

I had my face lift done 3 years ago this May. Some of the numbness has gone away but I still have most of it.

I'm sorry too Cathy. House hunting is stressful. I am going to put my house on the market on friday. I tried 2 years ago and it didn't sell then. the market is supposed to be better now. I am not going to give it away though. If nothing else, I will make it a rental. That is not my choice though. Now that it's all over, I wish I would have stayed in that house and not bought the house I'm in now. Sounds like you're having fun in Mexico Sheryl. I am glad you're still able to stay in touch with us. I am really freaking out over my weight. When I left home, I was 137. Now we are in Portland again, so we will be eating out a lot. I am definitely fasting when I get home. I told Bill he might have to stay away for a few days in case I am a bitch while fasting, lol.

Florinda, There will be a way to get the paper work straightened out for your stay in Germany. If it was supposed to be covered, you have nothing to worry about. I don't know anything about taxes but you'll probably have to find some sort of professional to help you with this.I know people who were able to greatly reduce the amount they owed to the IRS. Sending you cypber hugs. I wish I could give you a really big long hug, in person. I am doing very well other than I want to lose down back to 130. My pants fit better. Bill is in the kitchen cooking right now, but at least it's a healhy low carb soup. I don't want to gain any weight backi!!!

Georgia, I am so sorry to hear about this. I know shingles are so painful. I hope your doctor can find something to give you relief.

As it turns out, Bill was not mad at all last night when I got out of bed and he came upstairs. He was grumpy because he has sleep problems too. I am going to talk to him about his C Pap machine. He does snore sometimes when he's wearing it. I hate that thing. I wish he didn't snore or have that thing. Even if he's not snoring, the sound of it drives me insane. I come here and complain about him, but I really never talk about how wonderful he treats me, and how much fun we have togheter. Really, we do talk about everything. If we aren't talking, we email. He emails me every day, even if we have talked. He's very expressive about his feelings and thoughts, It think the emailing is a great idea, since I can write something I might not say in person. Soon we will be going to San Francisco together. I am excited. I'll answer more posts soon. I have to go back to bed. I woke up at 3 am and decided to get up rather than try to get back to sleep. Bill is asleep. This time he did not wake me up. I just wake up because that's my isnsomnia. If I can fall asleep , I can never stay asleep.

oh ps. I can't find the host forum. I thought it was in general disussion but I don't see a heading for it. Can someone direct me and then I will bookmark it. I'm sure I've missed out on months of stuff I was supposed to read.

I think a dispensary is a great idea. I just watched a thing on CNNC about them in Colorado. They are making money hand over fist. They serve food, and people just go and in and hang out like you would in a bar. What the heck, at least they don't get into fights and go home and beat on their wives and kids. Bill is very upset with me right now. I talked about how I can't get to sleep as early as him and he said he was fine with me getting out of bed and getting on my lap top. So I did. We are at his house. So he came upstairs acting all pissed off. I don't even care. We can talk about it again in the morning. I do love him. He is wonderful in many ways and is the person I have been looking for since my husband died. I want a man who is intelligent and communicates. When I told him my mom and dad had separate bedrooms and my brother and his wife do too, he was really upset. He said does not understand someone who wants to be in a couple and not sleep in the same bed. Snoring is a big issue for me. This is going to be an on going problem, but hopefully, not a deal breaker. I am an extrememly light sleeper. Going on vacation together in April will probably make us or break us. Please excuse the typos. I noticed my last post had a bunch.

Sheryl don't you have a detailed post you could refer them to that says this is where all those questions have been answered. Bill and I doing very well. He's very unhappy with his ED. We are going to CA pretty son, (middle of April) so he can see all his doctors. His ins, only pays in CA. It sucks. Sheryl, I'm glad you're seeing this therapist. She seems to be helping you get a better prespective on things. Stephen is good for you. I don't see why you keep trying to give him up. Even if you meet someone and you decide to become exclusive, I think Stepen will always be your friend. Florina, you are doing great! I would have lost my mind by now. I think it's normal to think about other people's lives and compare them to our own. You're doing a great thing, socking money away for your future. I don't know why the scale won't move for you. It only started moving for me if I fasted and then ate low calorie the non fast days. Georgia, I am sorry to hear of your shingles. I know that is very painful. I am so glad I got my shingls shot when I had all my deductibe in one year. I was really afraid , since I've known some people who have had it. I pray you get some relief and it goes away soon. Coops, I think it's great you and Hubby are doing 5:2 together. That would make it so much easier. Spring will be here soon and hopefully, that will raise your spirits. Skinny, I bet you are feeling like stress eating. Taking care of someone is hard depressing work. I hope you're doing something fun just for you. I haven't asked Queen of Crop because I know she can be long winded and I have trouble keeping up with the posts we have. If everyone really wants her in, I can invite her. If you're talking to her on on there threads, please pm me and tell me why you would rather post to her here rather than ont other threads,. I also deleted butter becausehe never posted.. Cathy and Chimerea, It's always good to hear from you even if you cant post ever day. This is not something to stress over. We are here for you if you need us, and if you have time to post, we're always glad for an udate. Globe you are always so level headed and seem to be doing quite well. You always have just the right thing to say, I am hanging in there, trying to get to know Bill. We had a great time going down the coast for a few days. I'm trying to get us to work in some sort of schedule so that I do stay at his house one or two days a week and he says here some days. He's starting to understand that I don't want to be glued to his hip, but I want to see and talk to him all the time.. In April we will be taking a big long trip to San Francisco and Sacremento so we can see his family, and for him to see his doctors. he really needs to see his pian specialist and get medication that does not make 'out of it" when he does need it. I am sure he will talk to his regular doc about his ED issues which are making him crazy. It's really hard to fast will Bill around but I am doing my best,. I wan to get back to 130 but it's hard to get to the gym with him around too. I am going to talk thim about that today. I need my gym time!! I am sorry if I missed anyone! I read every post. I went back several pages trying to see if I missed anyone. Please chimie in if you want Queen invited. There are others on the waiting list too.

Mine said at least 2 hours. I think I should start taking my Iron before bed. That makes sense since it would be way past meals and other Vitamins.

I would really like to find more people who have had a face lift and find out if this numbness is realy common. I keep wondering if he had not removed so much fat out of my face, if the numbness would be the same. I don't know where the nerves get cut.

I never told anyone until we were serious and I have had 2 serious bf's besides the one I am seeing now. I don't have a big skin issue, but I have a lot of restriction, and men don't really like to buy my dinner when I will barely eat. I feel after awhile, I have to tell them, because it's pretty obvious that I can not eat a normal sized meal, even after almost 5 years. I don't think if I did have a skin issue, that I would say a word if I had already had plastics.

No you are not too old! I am 61 and I am thrilled with my body and the clothes I can wear! It's never too late to feel better about yourself and make yourself healthier!

Coops I could not take the menopuse symptoms and I got on bio identical hormones. I feel so much better and honestly, I hope I never have to stop them. I can't live without sleep.

I have no clue what my body fat is and I don't really care. I go to the gym as often as I can, and do weight training and that's all I can do. I know I have more muscle than most 61 year old women, and I am trying to keep it. I feel like I am getting osteoporosis because my last bone density test showed the begining of it in my hips. I know that taking acid reducers is a cause of osteoporosis but I take my calcium citrate religiously. My hips have been hurting lately though. I am afraid to get home and get back on the scale. Bill and I have been staying at a beautiful resort on the beach on the CA border between OR and CA and it's just gorgeous here. My eating has been crazy since we've been gone, but I'll get back on track hopefully tomorrow since we are leaving in the morning.

I am so sorry to hear this. I have Hep C so I have the potential for liver cancer as well. I will pray for you both. I know a friend who had liver cancer and went to a teaching hospital and they were able to cure it with chemo. I will say prayers for you right now!

It does seem strange to lose hair this far out. I know being anemic causes hair loss. I was anemic for the longest time. Get your blood work done like everyone says. Anemia is very common for sleevers. We just can't get enough red meat down!

When I had my band, my band doctor sold their products. I liked them all. I love the protein hot chocolate. I think it's expensive though, so I learned to make my own.

Cheri put in a request to join which I approved but she has not posted in here either. I am down one pound today but now Bill wants to go down the coast today to the CA border. There's cute little tourist towns there. He just wants to get out of town. His C Pap machine really bothers me and just has to understand that after sleeping alone since I was 35, it's really dificult for me to have another person in my bed . I am such a light sleeper.

bill really likes to go to Costco and keeps a list going all the time, even though the closest one is 80 miles away. I am going to ck out those chicken burgers!

I've been accused of that too. My daughter always tells me I dress like I am still fat. I don't like skin tight clothes. She had my get a pair of skinny jeans but she said I bought them a size too big. I don't want anyone to think Bill is not a great guy. He is. He's so funny, and articulate. The men in this area are all hicks with no up bringing. He has wonderful manners, dresses very well, and I do love being with him. He has plenty to do at his house, so it's not a problem if I run around all day long. It's night time. He wants us to spend the night at his house or my house as long as we spend the night together. I like to sleep alone. That is what he just does not understand. I am going to talk to him again about sleeping separately more nights. I've already talked to him about my need to see my friends and family., In April, we are going to San Francisco. That's going to be a lot of fun. I am at the top end of where I want to be, so I need to get closer back to 5:2 I was 134 this morning and I'd rather be closer to 130. I'm afraid he's going to cause weight gain. He loves to go out to eat in nice restaraunts.

The thing about it is, I would be perfectly happy to see him every day, but not all day and all night. He keeps telling me he loves waking up with me. I do love waking up with him, but we are both bad sleepers and I want to sleep alone some of the time. He definitely needs more friends. He's been here about 3 years but he doesn't make any effort to make friends, where as I have a lot of friends that I miss doing things with.