Oregondaisy

I don't know when I last updated everyone. I don't remember if I told you all that I had a 2nd surgery. When I went to the infection specialist, I wasn't in her office 5 min. before she said you need to be admitted to the hospital immediately and I will find you a surgeon to clean out all the infection. I was operated on at midnight. I was in the hospital for 5 days. They placed a picc line on my arm and I have to shoot antibiotics in my line 3 times a day. I hate it so much. Apparently, this infection has affected my brain. Somebody please correct me if it's supposed to be effected my brain. Superbowl Sunday, my daughter and her family were here and I have no memory of it at all. I know a couple of our friends were there, but I don't remember my own daughter and her family being there. So hopefully, I will get this thing out of my arm in 6 weeks. I go to the hospital once a week to get the dressing changed and labs drawn. If my labs are okay, then I can have the picc line removed. I am really depressed. REALLY REALLY depressed. Bill and I decided that we would make better friends and that we just don't work as a couple. So that's been hard too. Even though we are very different, I care a great deal about him and I miss him. I haven't wanted to see anyone else. I've been glued to the tv to keep my mind off stuff. I watched 5 seasons of Parenthood on Netflix and I was bummed when it ended. I know there are more seasons besides those 5 cause they left it hanging. I had heard from people when the show ended that they were really bummed that it was over. So I decided to ck it out and I loved that series. I've been trying not to pig out and I've been staying right at 140. I am in no mood whatsoever to diet.

I didn't get fat from eating the healthy food that I eat and ate when I was fat. I got fat because I constantly drank Dr. Pepper and ate chips, candy, cookies, and cake anytime I wanted to. I tried to diet, and actually did well on Atkins several times. But the junk food always found it's way back into my life. The sleeve changed this for me because of that hunger hormone that was removed. I eat now when I am hungry, but I can only eat one piece of pizza, not half a pizza. I don't buy chips and junk food, but when I'm around it, I eat it and I gain weight. Even if you have a sleeve, it still takes tons of willpower to say no to fattening junk food. It's a balancing act and it always will be.

Hi all, Kim it doesn't bother me at all either. It helps me remember how much I love my parents. I still have too much guilt moving 2,000 miles away from them at age 20 because I hated Chicago. I would be upset beyond words if my grandkids lived that far away. tomorrow I go to the infusion center at the hospital to have my dressing changed over my pic and have labs drawn. It will be nice to know that I am actually getting better. Sheryl, I am happy for you that you're going to Costa Rica. If I am not being too nosy, are you going with a female friend? I was down to 140 this morning. I so wish I could go to the gym. I hate that I am losing muscle.

I finally got into an infectious disease specialist. I wasn't in her office 5 minutes and she told me I had to be admitted to the hospital immediately. She found me another surgeon who opened me back up and cleaned out the infection. She has me on a picc line for 6 weeks and oral antibitoics after that. I have to give myself infusions 3 x a day and it freaks me out. The infection got into my bones. I 'd like to strangle my first surgeon! At least I am on the road to recovery now.

I am not sure either but I know that I don't want to get osteoporosis. If all 3 of them who don't even know each other, independently recommended Calcium citrate that's good enough for me. Also, if you're on a PPI it will reduce your absorption of calcium.

Sarah, I am so sad for you that the accident has been so hard to recover from. Life sure is throwing challenges at us. I'm home from the hospital but it's going to be a long road back. I have to give myself antibiotic infusions every 8 hours and it takes 30 min to run the bag of anitbiotics. So tonight at 12:30 I have to attach it and sit and wait until 1am for it to finish. I have to do this for 6 weeks. Sheryl I am so happy you're having fun dancing. I would love to get healed and come up some day and go out with you. I know, dream on. I can barely make it to Portland. I am glad you checked in too Cathy. I hope your mom does not get diagnosed with Alzheimers too. That's just too much. I wish Wanda would check in. I hope everyone is doing well. Florinda, are you still seeing someone? How have you been feeling. You haven't mentioned your MS in a long time.

There would not be a band to sleeve revision forum if the band was a good thing. The band can ruin your stomach to the point that you could not even get a revision to a sleeve. The band has damaged so many people's stomachs, that I have lost count. I got the band because I didn't want gastric bypass, and at that time, it was the only other thing available. I had it taken out when I started throwing up in my sleep.

I went from a C to a AA. I can't find a bra to fit me either. I did find a sports bra that's padded that looks pretty good with clothes on. It's not very sexy though.

Both of my surgeons, from band and sleeve, as well as my nutrtionist told me that calcium carbonate is a very cheap kind of calcium, and our tiny stomachs would not absorb much calcium from them. All 3 agreed that we need calcium citrate.

I'm going on 6 years and I don't think I could eat 2 cups of anything other than salad. Salad chews down to nothing. Solid Protein - steak or chicken I can eat about 3 oz.

I love to dance any kind of dancing. Salsa is really fun. I really hope this back problem of mine is not going to keep me from dancing. It's something I've been worrying about. Before this last surgery, I could not straighten my back. I was walking like a hunched up old lady. I hated that! Everyone has commented on how I am walking much more like my old self. Sarah, I'm sorry you're having to deal with Alzheimer's. That is such a horrible thing, to have someone you love, not recognize you. I'm so glad I've never known anyone personally who had it, but I've had friends whose parents died from it. Such a sad thing. Sheryl, I remember you asking about the articles on here and whether we read them or not. I don't. I have read some of the members spotlights, but that's about it. In fact, I hardly read the board anywhere but here anymore. I will move around the board when I am very bored. Long days of nothing but rain will do that to a person, but right now, we're having great weather, and I am stuck in here!

I hate when that happens Kim! I am in the hospital. The infection doctor told me immediately when I got to her office to go to the ER and tell them I need to be admitted for surgery. I had a neurosurgeon opperate on me. He could not believe how deep the infection went. . I have a picc line and when I get out on Tuesday , I have to start giving myself antibiotic injections into my picc line, for 6 weeks. After that, oral antibiotics. It's going to drive me crazy not to shower for such a long time. He said not to shower because I have a drain in my back and i can't get the picc line wet. Bill is here and my son and his family came last night from Portland. My daughter will be here tomorrow. I can hardly keep food down with the pain medication. They are trying different nausea meds and the timing of when to take it ahead of my food. I'm sorry but I am too exhausted to comment on everyone's posts, but I'm keeping up reading everyone's posts. I am so glad I have all of you for friends, even though we haven't met.

I had the MRI on my back and the results are very bad. The infection has gone into the bone. My daughter says I will need surgery again. I see the specialist tomorrow. I am depressed beyond words. I asked my surgeon a month ago for a CT scan to see if it had gone into the bone. He convinced me to do one more round of antibiotics. GRRRR I should have listened to my daughter and demanded one. I weighed 142 again this morning. I seem to be hanging out there. I eat a lot of junk but try to watch it too. I guess my body likes this weight. I weighed 142 again this morning. I seem to be hanging out there. I eat a lot of junk but try to watch it too. I guess my body likes this weight. I could never do kick boxing. I guess I really liked working out by myself using the weights but now I can't do anything. There are some websites I want to check out to see what people put on their walls besides pictures and paintings.

Finally, I have some plans besides take more antibiotics. I am going to have an MRI tomorrow morning. There is this lump in that spot, and I assume it needs to be drained but who knows what could be in there. Sheryl, I am glad you found someone new to date. I get some sort of enjoyment hearing about your dates, since I'm stuck here in Nowheresville. I like Bill just fine. I am not in the mood to find someone else even though we are not compatible There is not one thing that both of us feel the same way about. I hate his music most of all. It's the weirdest music I have ever heard. Finding someone new would take a lot of effort which I have no energy for. Maybe the universe will take pitty on me and I'll meet someone IRL . I would love to have to tell Bill I met someone that who likes the same things I like. He would be happy for me. He knows this is ridiculous to be with someone who likes nothing you like. I am just going to have to go shopping and buy some new tops. My tops are all tight fitting from 10 lbs ago. I would really hate to get rid of my clothes but I need some loose fitting tops. I've been trying to redo my house too. Actually, I've never done anything since I moved in 3 years ago, other than paint. I have no idea how to decorate. I bought a few paintings but the one long wall looks kind of funny cause the wall is so big. I don't know if you're supposed to put other things next to paintings. A painting to fit that wall would be so expensive.

No, my infection is not gone. I am so depressed. I cry all the time. I have had an infection since the beginning of Nov. tomorrow I go in and see my nurse practitioner. If I had a dr. it would help enormously . She is going to refer me to a infection specialist. My daughter the nurse wants to see if she can refer me for a cat scan , I am not sure if that is in the scope of her capabilities, but the doctor who runs the clinic is. He is the one that called me when I was septic. Either way, I am not going back to my surgeon who does nothing My weight is the same 142-143. I just can't diet right now. I can make sure I'm not eating too much junk,but I can't limit other stuff. I am just to depressed. I'm glad we have each other. There is sure a mix of us who gained back our 5:2 weight, but at least all of us are trying. That's all we can do. And best of all, we have each other.

It usually happens to me when I eat something that's high in fat and sugar. These are not things I should be eating anyway. If I eat right, I don't have these problems. Are you eating a high Protein, low carb diet?

Why can't the rest of the world just go on a diet with us so that we aren't constantly being forced to watch people eat cake, cookies, candy, chips, french fries, and my personal worse downfall, ice cream.

Yes, A Sleeve4me is the person that wants in our group. I checked on some of her past posts and she got a little snarky with IggyChick. I think Iggy has disappeared. I just don't know how I feel about someone coming in here that none of us are very familiar with. I am sure I am going to gain back what little I lost with Superbowl tomorrow. I hope it's not going to stick around though. I really want this extra weight off. I know exactly how you feel. None of my clothes fit either. It's so depressing to want to wear something then try it on and realize it's way too tight. Mine is in the belly area. My tops are just too tight in the stomach area. I have pants from size 6 to 14. The story of my life. I'm just glad I am battling it at this weight than over 200 lbs. It's really depressing not being able to go to the gym. I just feel like my life sucks right now.

LMAO! You're probably right!

It's really hard to not diet when I weigh 10lbs more than I want to. Plus I'm afraid I'll gain more. I'm not on antibiotics right now, so that is really a good thing for my liver. I am so scared the infection is going to come back though. I've been off antibiotics since Tuesday so I am hoping that means it's gone. I would think if it's going to come back, it would do so within a week. 3 more days so maybe I'm in the clear. I found my blender bottle. It was at my daughter's house. I have no memory of taking a protein shake to her house. I'm getting senile. I wonder how this person that none of us seem to know, knew about our group to ask to be invited in. It's not supposed to show up on the line up of groups . I guess since none of us know who she is, I could tell her we're not letting new people in at this time. If anyone felt ambitious, we could do a check on what she has posted. I hate to leave her hanging. That other 5:2 thread in the veterans forum moves right along, so I don't know how she knows about us and why she wants to be a part of our group.

I've been fasting even though I am not supposed to due to liver issues. I am not losing. I am sure it's because of the gabapentin. I really need that stuff, but I am so bummed that it causes weight gain. I can so relate to you Sheryl. I can't go to the gym. Hell, I can barely walk. I am really depressed. I can't do anything. It hurts to get in and out of bed. I went from an active middle aged lady to a crippled up senior citizen in a matter of days. the only good thing is that there is no sign of infection. This is really stupid. I lost my blender cup. It's a mini blender and I've been using it for years. Occasionally, I will bring my shake into the bedroom. I've looked everywhere. All the little odd places I stick it when I am drinking it and I am not in the kitchen . It's sitting somewhere, getting all moldy. I'm going to go and buy another one today. I'll find it eventually. This is so ridiculous.

I look at this thread and I reminded of all the people who post I lost __Fill in the blank___lbs Gone Forever! It used to make me so sad because I was one of the first people to join this board, revising from a band and I knew I had made the right decision. I lost weight right away because I got revised quickly when I started to have band problems. All of a sudden, between year 2 and 3, I could not lose the little gain I had over the weekend. I was good all week long, ate all Protein drank my Water and the scale did not budge. Pretty soon it was time for the next weekend, and I gained 2 more lbs. Then the holidays came around and I was completely depressed. I lost all my regain with the 5:2 plan rather easily. I didn't have a bf or husband, so I could plan all my meals the way I wanted. All that changed when I got another bf. Popcorn at the movies, him bringing home ice cream and donuts constantly etc and I am right back to where I was. I had back surgery in early Nov. and I have had complications from that, so I can't even exercise. I am determined though. It's either take off some weight or go and buy new clothes. I refuse to give all my really cute and stylish expensive clothes to a thrift shop. I just have to gather all my willpower and stop snacking in the evenings. I hate to say I'm glad other people are now gaining weight back, but i have to say it was so depressing to keep reading how everyone was getting full from 4 bites of food, and they have lost all desire for sweets. We can do this, and we don't have to do it alone!

I've not heard of the instant pot either. I am all for anything that can make cooking easier. I'm still on antibiotics and I think tomorrow I finish them. Then it will be a waiting game to see if it's finally healed and there is no sign of infection. Each time, it's taken about 5 days and it's back. I started eating low carb again and I really notice a difference in my sugar cravings. It's so true how eating carbs makes you crave carbs. So glad to hear from you Kelly? Nobody answered me whether or not we should let ASleeve4me into our group. We have a request that's just hanging there waiting for an answer.

I should make some of the WW soup too. I could always add a little bit of chicken breast to put some Protein in it. While I can't fast, I can still eat low carb. I was doing so well, and I got to my bf's house last night and he had bought my favorite kind of Cookies. I only had 2 but they are sure calling to me right now. I need to get on the scale and see how I'm doing. I can usually drop a few lbs , just eating low carb. It's a lot easier to tell myself that my liver needs protein and green leafy veggies and not to eat sugar because that's bad for the liver. I'm not fasting doing any 500 calorie days because of all the infections in my back and my problems with my liver, but I am waiting to eat Breakfast much later, and not eating anything after 9 pm. One snack after dinner, somewhere between 7 - 9pm. That's got to help because I am not grazing all evening long.

I really want to go to a wound specialist. I can't go right now because all of them that I called said my wound is healed right now. So to them, I have no wound. I am going to try to get into an infectious disease specialist. I went to the doctor today, not my surgeon . She said when I get off these antibiotics , if the infection comes back, do not go to my sugeon. come straight to her and she will get me into the infectious disease specialist. Then, they will see I have an infection. It sounds crazy to me. I'm really mad that I can't get into either one, unless the infection is present. To get into the wound specialist, it has to be an open wound. I am sure I am an emotional eater. I eat tiny meals. I'm never really hungry. I am cutting carbs and eating tons of protein because I can't fast. All I need to do really, is cut out all junk food. I know this is awful, but it's comforting me that I am not the only one struggling. When I first joined this board, there were so few sleevers. I was so alone when I started gaining and losing , gaining and losing. Everyone else was reporting how they were full from 3 bites and never thought about food. Florinda, last I heard, you were looking for a job. I think a lot has happened that you haven't told us about. Are you seeing someone special now? And how is your health these days? I'm excited too Sheryl that the Seahawks are in the superbowl. I don't know much about football at all, but we're having friends over and it will be fun to root for a team in the PNW. Hey we got a request from ASleeve4me to join our group. I know we talked about letting more people in. I know she's been around awhile, but I can't recall much about her. How does everyone feel. I can't remember who we recently let in, but she's not posting.