krissy1

I have always been at least 20lbs overwieght since i was 16. I would go from 150 to 180 and back to 150 several times over the years. After the birth of my son in 2003 I weighed 205 and quickly got pregnant again with my youngest son. After giving birth to him I weight 215lbs. I went through a divorce in 2006 and I felt so over weight wieght i couldnt stand to look at people in the face i always walked with my head down. In 2007 I wanted something to change, i didnt want to buy, wear, or keep size 22 to 24 clothes. I felt no one would love me at my size and I was never going to get married again. I would sweat just from getting my kids out of the car and walking them into a building. So I had had enough. I went on the first serious diet I've ever been on which was slim fast. I had two slim fast and one meal a day for almost a year. and the wieght did come off at a rapid rate. then i bought a home gym machine and started using that everyday until it broke then i went to a gym. So in two years I went from 215 to 125. I started backing off of the working out and I started eating more and the weight come back and then some. At first the weight gain was slow, a few pounds here and there than it was like a water faucet and the weight come on quickly in a matter of 8 months. I now wiegh 225 and the last time i wieghed this much was when I was last pregnant. I was diagnosed with hypothryoidism and that slowed me down which added some to the weight gain I believe. It still shocks me to see how heavy I have gotten and how easy the weight gain came. I have learned that I will never be one of those people that can eat whatever I want and that I'm not granted with a fast metabolism this wieght thing is constant work for me. It's hard to deny myself food when I use to food to cope, when I'm sad or happy. There are times i just want the damn cake even though i know one piece will tip the scale. I need some tool to help me eat less. the lapband is the answer for me. The first time i heard of lapband was during lunch at Olive Garden. A friend invited someone who had just gotten it. She sat with us and was full after five bites of soup and here i thought what a waste! we are at Olive Garden and there is just too much good food to just take a few bites. But in spite of myself I was curious, didnt she feel hungry? Did she feel like she was missing out? not from what I could see, food didnt seem all important to her like it was to me. her and her mother had both gotten the lapband. her mom had lost 100lbs with the lapband and her daughter was well on her way to losing that much too. At the time i met her i weighed 140 so it wasnt such a issue than and at the time i took pride in that i didnt need wieght loss surgery. that was all going to change quickly.This past January I had tried to loss the wieght and found that losing five pounds was a struggle and i always felt hungry than deprived if i didnt eat. I was newly married and I was becoming one of those women who let themselves go after marriage and I felt like I had no control to stop it. I do have a wonderful husband who loves and supports me even at this weight. It's very comforting and brings a security to know that someone can love me no matter what my size is. I went to my general doctor to ask about the lapband he refered me to Dr. Korn in boise. It took me another six months just to get the process started the thought of surgery scared the hell out of me. But for the last six months the scale has gone up and not down and i had to make a choice. So i choose lapband and my surgery is tomorrow. I'm excited and scared at the same time and i can't wait to do my before and after pictures!