I don't either. I hate when people tell random other people on the internet to give it to god or to pray. Why do they assume we believe in god???
But, you sound borderline suicidal and I suggest you might need to reach out to someone URGENTLY!
Please get help. Feeling like you want to die is NOT a normal reaction to WLS. Regret is common, but you sound like you are in crisis.
Good luck!