Thanks. I agree. I hoped coming here I might find a spark, you know? Something to inspire me to a greater commitment. MY "want to" and my willpower are weak. In my past I have made up my mind to do some difficult things and achieved them. My want to is just not strong enough. Like you say, I can do some things and I'm working on those. No bread for a few days. Lean protein from drinks and turkey bologna and low fat cheese. Salads. More water consumption. I want to turn the corner and go all out, but I am unable to. Part of it I suppose is my love for diet Mt. Dew.