Your feelings are perfectly normal, many people have the same thoughts. Myself included. I’m four weeks post op and the first week for me I didn’t really process what I did, despite the obvious changes. The second week I had a few fleeting “omg this is forever” panics, particularly at night as I lay in bed with nothing but my thoughts. Now? Loving it. As soon as I started getting solids in and felt the restriction I was happy. Very few people know I had it done so eventually at holidays people will see my portion size and ask.. they’ll also see my weight loss, so I’ll tell them most of the truth... I’m eating less, I’m eating healthier, and I’m not going to gorge myself just because it’s a certain date on a calendar. Same would apply if I ate out. I’m already eating whatever I want (they’re all good choices though so that’s a new thing I’m enjoying). I honestly don’t miss the garbage and getting full on one egg or two grilled chicken bites is just as satisfying to me as any plate full of food i would have eaten prior. All the flavor is there, smaller nibbles doesn’t change that and I really think I’m taking longer and savoring it more. I hope you get better, I believe you will.