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Oh wow Fluffy, Mr. Sue hates that game too... lol I make him play. I need perspective like that as well. When I was 232 or bigger, I did not think of myself as that obese unless I saw a picture myself - I even came home and threw that outfit in the trash because I looked like $h!t in it from a picture. And now I have an even harder time seeing myself smaller - almost 'normal'. It's so weird.

What happens when two sleevers with ADD make a podcast? Exactly what you think. I'm Kristen, or @themorrigan.vsg and my cohost is Emily or @emilyamvsg. I'm 16 months out, and she's 6 years out. We've got a lot to talk about trust me. I'm a recovering Binge Eater, she's on a quest to find love while struggling with life after VSG, and we're just out here doing the thing, ya dig? We talk about weight, weight loss, weight gain, messed up childhoods, VSG, struggles and successes after surgery, being fat in the nineties, the soul crushing experience that is online dating, and to top it off, for the fellow Murderinos, we do ten minutes of True Crime at the end of every episode. Because they say stick to what you know. We want everyone who's going through all this, or about to, or just wants to kiki with us and share some giggles, to know that there's a podcast out there full of all the things you want to talk about but may not be able to. We sometimes have guests on to share their stories and backgrounds and experiences. We'll laugh, we'll get triggered, we'll ugly cry. We'll find out that the real treasure has been in our hearts all along. Or something. Get in losers - we're going podcasting! Sent from my SM-G950U using BariatricPal mobile app

So, from everything I read/heard before surgery, it would take my brain a while to catch up to my weight loss and I would still see myself as super heavy for a while. I seem to be the exact opposite - As I've lost, I've felt like I'm really small, then as I'm in a new size for awhile, I look at myself and realize I'm just not. So, I feel/think I look thin when I first get into a new size, then later feel/think I look fat. Not really ranting, it is just interesting how my perception of myself has been very different than I had been told it would be.

smack that smile back!

Yay, can’t wait to ugly cry....ahhhhgain 😏

So Friday was a normal day felt pretty good stopped to see a friend and ended up having a drink which led to to many and proceeded to eat and drink all night long boy did i feel like **** Saturday at work ate a lot of bad stuff not alot of it just bar food(deep fried garbage ) still paying for it today feeling like i failed over the weekend and now i must be more diligent about what i eat and drink period did all the wrong things over the weekend and i know it first time in ten months i have really slipped off so feeling really guilty about it and through all of this i was able to drop below 200lbs still do not fell good about it i know it only 1 pound that was a bugger of a 1lb so back on the horse that threw me now and staying focused on me not the good time (that really was not that much fun ) oh by the way ALM is not as good at drinking as i once was for sure rant over thanks for listening

Thanks for havin our backs Cheeseburgh! I'm gonna shout you out for that friend, provided I can remember to do so. Which is not incredibly likely if I'm being honest, given I just forgot how to operate the microwave at work for a minute. I was heating up ground turkey. You're welcome for this info. Can you tell this is Kristen? Probably, huh? I type just like I talk.

Body dysmorphia. It's real. ((hugs)) One of the things that helped me and Mr. F. hates is my "Am I bigger or smaller than her?" game. He HATES it. But it is helping me see myself at my real size. I pick someone out who I think is WAY smaller than me and who is someone I perceive to have a perfect size/shape. Then I ask him, "Bigger or smaller." And he has to answer honestly. Then I spend a couple minutes scoping her out to try to memorize that look and I try to "feel" that shape. Does that make any sense? I'm ALWAYS surprised when he says, "Smaller." Always.

Wow chili lime cashews sound awesome! I know trader joes has a thai chili almond which is soooo yummy!! I know I am trying to train myself into thinking like "I don't eat that" but right now it's more "I can't eat that" soon my body and mind will learn, thank you 🙂

was not intended to rub any one wrong at all i was the one driving and i do work very hard at staying on program my choice of words may be wrong i just put it out there that i have not met my end of the deal over the weekend and i am better for the slip and know i can not partake in those situations at this time in my journey as my heath is more important to me than that