Being in emotional pain for the better part of 45 years and now in physical pain for several years and after dozens of failed attempts to lose weight, I've decided on bariatric surgery. Surgery is scheduled for March 6, 2019. I was excited for about a minute... then the fears set in.
How drastically will my life change when I lose the weight?
Will my husband and I still love each other? Will our lives take such different paths that we grow apart?
What will family and colleagues say/think?
Am I vain for wanting to do this?
Then there is the uncertainty of success...
Can I truly commit to this new lifestyle?
Will this be added to list of failures?
I am committed to this decision and yet as I sit here while the family is still asleep, with tears streaming down my face, I keep asking myself "why are you afraid to be thin?"