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I think therapy will be super helpful for you, and I'm going to talk from my experiences with MY therapist. I understand what you're saying about missing the way you used to eat. From what I've worked through with my therapist, it's the ability to control what goes into my mouth. If I was having a bad day, if my abusive parents went off on me, I could gain control of my life again by eating an entire large pizza. If I was tired, if I felt like I wasn't going anywhere in life, I could eat an entire pasta bread bowl and cheese sticks. I could eat one, two three cheeseburgers because I wanted to, I was in control of how much I ate and went. That feeling of being full, of tasting that food over and over again, was what calmed me down. Unfortunately, like more instant forms of self-harm, it's an unhealthy coping skill. You haven't gained any control by eating two large Double Double meals with milkshakes. All you've done is postponed your time to deal with it. having surgery and having to be "forced" into a new way of eating takes this control away. You can't do what you used to do, so you feel like you're out of control. You are worth so much more than gorging yourself on food. You are worth working through your feelings. You deserve so much more than what your brain may be telling you, and I'm so proud of you. ❤️

@jultrim18 you are not alone in these feelings. I have started counseling as well because even at two weeks post surgery, I find myself miserable and repulsed by the "new" life I am living. If my husband takes me to the movies (to get me out of the house), I cry through most of it (happened twice already 😢) because of the smell of popcorn and knowing I can't have it. We try to go visit family and have some sense of normalcy and I started crying at the dinner table...right into my 2oz of strained cream soup. I have already made the decision I will spend Thanksgiving home alone this year and send my husband and kids to eat and celebrate with the family. I don't want my depression to ruin everyone holiday. I know I am going to need help overcoming this and my husband and kids (age 16 & 19) don't know how to help at this point. That is where the counseling comes in and at this point I am really hoping it works or at least improves my Outlook as I adjust to this "new" me. 😕

I am also using a Couch to 5K Active App. Friday I completed week 5 day 3 and it was a 5 min warm up, 20 min jog, and 5 Min cool down. That is the longest I have jogged since high school. Today I start Week 6 and hope to be ready for my local Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving morning which I signed up for. My goal is to be able to jog the whole thing under 45 minutes. These posts are inspiring and led me to take this on.

^^^^^Wow! This! 1000 times this!!! ^^^^^ Thank you for sharing!

Hi Jed! I was 365 at my highest (which is pretty high for a woman) and I also had the sleeve. A couple of my friends thought I should do the bypass because I had/have so much to lose but my surgeon left it up to me so I chose the sleeve because of the slightly lower complication rate. Surgery was 1 month ago and I’ve lost 61 lbs (38 before surgery and 23 since). The good news about being REALLY overweight is you tend to lose faster than people with less to lose. Good luck to you!!

Nope, I am all set for the sleeve. I've been looking into doing something like this for the last 10 years. I am not real keen on the idea of a bypass.

3 weeks out and I drink normally now. Once in a while I forget and chug and feel the pressure in my belly but nothing terribly dramatic, just a good reminder to slow down a bit...

I am only 3 days post op. I am not sure but I have read somewhere that in time you will be able to take bigger sips, as your stomach heals and such. I am not sure how far out you are but I hope it gets better for you. I am just learning the sipping stage. Trying to understand and listen to when my sleeve is full. Since I am only 3 days post op, hoping to figure this out soon. Yesterday I drank 2 16 ounce bottles of water, a few sips of chicken broth in the hospital and a jello ice pop. I had fluids yesterday morning, so today I really need to work towards 64 ounces.

I lost 15 pounds on my liver-shrink, did it the entire month of August, knew my surgeon found NASH when he examined me in mid-July so I commuted myself to shrink it down. For each week you liver shrink it decreases 2.4% in size so mine decreased between 12 and 15%, and it made it easier for Dr Needleman and less pain for me post-surgery. And I was very proud of ME that I could do it. And you will have your own Pride Moments on your journey, remember not to always judge yours by others, we each make our own kind of 🎶 in weight loss, and it is the Right Song for Each of Us!👈😛👉

The Halloween Zombie run sounds like a lot of fun! Congrats on all your accomplishments! I'm hoping I can get back into running 5ks once I lose more weight.