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Well, I hit my first stall - I weigh the same as I did when I weighed a week ago. I know for a fact that I need to get more exercise, but even so... it still seems odd to me that, even though one is eating less than 600 calories/day, one could stop losing weight. BUT I was warned about stalls and it's not a surprise and I'm not even that upset about it. I'm still struggling with food, but I think that, even though eating too fast was part of it, I've been trying to eat foods that my sleeve can't tolerate yet - I don't think pain when eating is supposed to be normal. It's just so weird not to be able to eat everything I want; I mean, I've never had a problem with any food in my pre-surgery life, my stomach could tolerate everything, but it's obvious now that that isn't the case any longer. So I'm backing off, eating soft foods again, trying to be gentler with my body, introducing one new thing at a time, still working on eating more slowly. It's just such a shame to have to throw away so much of the food I made recently.

I hope everyone has had a great summer and i hope you go into this holiday season from a better place than the year before. This last week was my 30th wedding anniversary and i am happy to think that i will have many more to come. In the not so distant past i was not so sure i would live to see this one and 35 or 40 was beyond my expectations. Anything could still happen but at least i have stopped digging in my effort to get of the hole i found myself in. I have made 3 life changing decisions in the last few decades. 1. asking my wife to marry me - being a child of divorced parents colors your expectations about getting and staying married. 2. saying yes when my wife asked if i wanted children - This was a lie at the time. having a child was THE most terrifying thing i could think of. Today there is nothing i would not do for my daughter and i feel a love i did not know could exist inside a person. 3. accepting that i could not control my weight by myself and getting this surgery to save my own life. Putting myself first as a way to be there for them is not a concept that I lived by before. If you ever wonder is it worth it yes it is cause i was worth it and they are worth it. Never give up folks Whatever you are working towards you have the rest of your life to get there.