I think everyone goes through this.
But at the end of the day....Sadly, what it comes down to....is being more afraid of parting ways with your life, your health, your mobility, your ability to participate in the lives of the people you love.
I get thinking that it's not that bad yet... And I totally understand the idea of....I did this well with diet, why have the surgery?
Look at statistics. Research this question: What percentage of people keep weight off with diet and exercise alone compared to bariatric surgery?
It's not a magic bullet. You can still regain. You might not make goal.
But statistically? You will lose more weight, and you will keep more off permanently....with weight loss surgery.
It's your best hope. It gives you the best odds. It's a safe surgery. You can do this.