I got really, really scared a couple of days before surgery. The morning of, I was fine while distracted by all of the prep work but once on the table in the operating room I was freaking out and wondering if I was crazy to be doing this and perhaps should get up and walk out.
I still cannot believe I let someone cut me open and take out most of my stomach, but am glad I didn't leave. I am one month post-op, and although there were little hiccups (literally) and frustrations over the past month, I feel like this surgery may help me establish the normal-ish relationship with food that I have always wanted.