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OH BOY!! I am two days away from sleeve surgery. I am so excited!! Today is the last day of my full liquid diet. All clear liquids tomorrow with the awesome mag citrate. Also working this evening and tomorrow evening as well. That's the not so fun part. Prayers, well wishes, and positive vibes appreciated! Thanks!

So the ex-bf is completely out of the picture. I could not handle the uncertainty of his behaviors. One day he likes the way I dressed, the next day I was begging for attention. Once he started with the insecurities, I had to let it go. Truthfully, it did not hurt me as much as I thought it would. And that is because I had falling in love with someone else. I fell in love with a woman. She is the most funny, beautiful and caring person I have ever met. She is strong, confident and dorky at the same time. She is everything I ever wanted in a person and she is ME!! I FELL IN LOVE with MYSELF again. I forgot the person I used to be and went searching for her and I found her. I never want to lose her again. If that meant giving up someone else for the sack of myself, then I would do what is necessary to keep me as a I am. I guess sometimes you have to be selfish. I cannot sacrifice my success to make someone else fell secure in themselves. I cannot sacrifice my peace of mind to give some one a peace of mind. I just could not keep living my life through other peoples wants, hopes and desires. I want to live my life for me. I have wants, hopes and desires and I plan on making them happen. "Like a Phoenix, out of the Ashes comes NEW LIFE!"

TODAY I HIT 50lbs lost I am super happy and excited to be at my 50lb loss at 6 weeks out !!!!!