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So the ex-bf is completely out of the picture. I could not handle the uncertainty of his behaviors. One day he likes the way I dressed, the next day I was begging for attention. Once he started with the insecurities, I had to let it go. Truthfully, it did not hurt me as much as I thought it would. And that is because I had falling in love with someone else. I fell in love with a woman. She is the most funny, beautiful and caring person I have ever met. She is strong, confident and dorky at the same time. She is everything I ever wanted in a person and she is ME!! I FELL IN LOVE with MYSELF again. I forgot the person I used to be and went searching for her and I found her. I never want to lose her again. If that meant giving up someone else for the sack of myself, then I would do what is necessary to keep me as a I am. I guess sometimes you have to be selfish. I cannot sacrifice my success to make someone else fell secure in themselves. I cannot sacrifice my peace of mind to give some one a peace of mind. I just could not keep living my life through other peoples wants, hopes and desires. I want to live my life for me. I have wants, hopes and desires and I plan on making them happen. "Like a Phoenix, out of the Ashes comes NEW LIFE!"

3 Days out of surgery! Feeling ok.... working on getting my fluids in and walking. Trying not to take too many pain pills. I detest jello 😜 but love chicken broth. I’m down about 8 pounds already, not focusing on weight loss though, just getting better.

After 7+ months, I have a surgery date of Oct 24 2017. Am over half way through the preop liquid diet. This has been VERY difficult for me. Nothing tastes good & I constantly feel nausious & lightheaded. I have lost 11lbs in 7 days on the preop diet. I am however, extremely excited to move to the next stage of my life. A much healthier one. SW 211 PREOP DIET STARTING WEIGHT 211lbs CW 200lbs GW 115lbs

One week post op today. Down 18 since pre opt diet and 10 since surgery So far so good. Liquids going down pretty easily now. First few days, I had to take the tiniest sips for it not to hurt. Ready to move on to Protein shakes (Phase 2) tomorrow. Hopefully, I will have enough will to make it 2 more weeks on a liquid diet!