I want to believe that I can do this on my own. Many people will tell me that along the way, I know. But I have been so motivated before that I could have sung from the rooftop my weight loss anthem, and I still failed. The problem is now that I am older and have tried many times and see my weight higher than ever, I don't get that blind faith in myself anymore. I know that I'm a very strong person, and ambitious and nice and have a lot of good qualities. But I am not good at self discipline. Especially with food. The flip side of this is there is hope. Statistically and medically what I have chosen is normally very successful. And people who have chosen gastric sleeve sing it's praises. I thought ppl would hate it. But the more I read, the more I hear over and over again "the best thing I ever did" and "wish I'd done it sooner." I understand that weight loss surgery can be offensive or appear extreme to the general public. Maybe it seems I'm overly commited? Or maybe less comitted? Maybe it seems like cheating or an easy way out. Maybe it seems too extreme and hard when I could do it the old fashioned way. None of this really matters to me. At the end of the road, it has to be what I chose I can live with. And right now I know I have to chose a life of morbid obesity, or a life with weight-loss surgery to help me escape. Which is more dangerous? What is more risky? Which has more potential for happiness? These are my questions to answer, no one else's. Sent from my LGL64VL using BariatricPal mobile app