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So, I tried to save some money by working out at home and realize that I am not determined enough to do it. I work out, but not nearly as much as I should be. Doc wants me to do at least 3x a week, and I've been skimping. My husband noticed too and asked me if I had thought to go back to the gym. This is unlike me really. I love to workout...just not at home, apparently. I really did try though. So, back to the gym today. I'll have to sign back up again. That is my element of working out. I'll take a monthly fee and stronger, better health, than trying to save that bit and slacking.

Ok, I need some accountability from my friends here. I am starting to want to buy every cute running outfit I see, and I just bought a new pair of running shoes just so I can rotate between three, and of course they are all different colors so they match what I am wearing. I need to get a handle on this fast because this isn't like me. I can talk myself into buying these things easily by telling myself it is for a good cause, but really I don't need a different outfit for every day of the week and these are all summer outfits. I am running late today. I just finished my run and I am supposed to be on my way to work. I need to hit the shower. I am glad I have confessed my sins to y'all...lol... have a great day.

Would love to change my look but not due to weight loss. I want to do something drastic with my hair but not to out of this world just enough to make me feel more exciting also I could use it my act.

Its weird how your body image changes over time. I was fit in my youth (up to senior year in high school), i had a very softball playerlike/borderline hardbody and i loved my body. After gaining weight, my confidence plummeted. For most of my adult life, I tried hard to lose weight, always imagining myself as thin with not much muscle. I'll never forget my father (love him to death btw) telling me at 18 to stop lifting weights because I (meaning me specifically, not females in general) can bulk up a bit from it. He had always treated me like i was his 2nd son, but as i got older he started pushing me to be "girlier". I guess he realized as puberty set in, that despite all my feminine attributes my body liked being muscular. And it kind of stuck with me for a long time. I was terrified of weights after that. I wanted a flat stomach and a thigh gap and thin arms, but no six pack, no definition. Now, as i watch myself shrink down, I'm embracing how my body is truly designed. I build muscle (much easier than a lot of females), and I'm finally ok with that. I care more about what this body can do than what it looks like. And a lot of the things I enjoy require muscle....so......