Stress actually raises the Cortisol levels in you! You're Cortisol levels are probably off the chart - which is like being in a fight or flight mode all the time. So, it totally makes sense that you couldn't or didn't lose weight. No way your body is going to let go of any fat - when it's so stressed. I am sorry for all that your family has endured - tough stuff. But, I love your last paragraphs about reducing stress and learning to relax. You got this, girl! Hang in there and eat some protein before you take a bite of the mashed potatoes!
Love, Beth