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So I was down to 191.4 and so excited about that! I was looking so forward to being under 190 I could almost taste it... But this past weekend (2/7/15) my sister had a baby shower for my oldest daughter in NC. This is my first grandchild and I just can't wait. Everyone was saying how skinny I was and I guess it went to my head. I was eating like a pig, I had so many M&M's it wasn't funny. and cake and dips and chips and everything I have stayed away from for 3 months... I came home and weighed myself Monday morning and I was up 4 pounds! OMG 4 POUNDS!! I feel like a failure... so pathetic I am to eat like that... I did get sick a couple times but just kept eating! I am home now and back to eating the way I have been and today I was down almost 2 pounds. I need to get back on track, I need to get back to working out and not pigging out on food. any help would be appreciated.. and words of advice, recipes anything to help me get back on track! I want that 189!!! it is my next goal!