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I was bad with my dinner last night. But I loved every bit of it. Today is another day and I will be better. I did not over eat, I just ate the wrong things. I had 3 coconut shrimp, great bread dunked in oil and cheese pizza. The local restaurant has a great football special when the N.E. Patriots play. Yes they won!!! On one of my other WLS groups one person spoke of her friend and by pass. The woman had by pass about 10 years ago and was doing great for a while. She is now in the hospital for revision. She stretched out her pouch and when the doctor went to sew her insides it was like cotton candy, her words not mine. The woman is on ice chips for a few days and in the hospital for at least 10 days. If that doesn't scare the S**T out of you, nothing will. ​I never was a drinker. In fact the last frozen Girl Scout cookie I had I broke out into hives and never had a drink since. That was over 15 years ago. So drinking was never anything I was going to miss with my journey. I never liked fast foods and yet I was and am obese. Fast food was always a comfort food but not for me. Give me bread and more bread, ice cream. I now have bread in restaurants and maybe once or twice a month in my own house. I think we all went into this new journey to get healthy, be thinner and move our bodies that were just sitting around. No one forced us but we need to be smarter with choices. Like CG always says, Listen to your doctor!! Listen to your dietitian and finally listen to your body. Have a great week. October is tomorrow and before you know it Halloween. I only buy candy I hate and I hate more candies than I like. I never had a problem with buying candy. Yes, I hate Snickers!! Arlene

I wont buy candy until the day of. Sweets are my very best satanic addiction. If I have one I will have 101.

I had planned on documenting my gastric sleeve surgery experience in the order it occurred, but I forgot about the psych evaluation. Once again luck was on my side as I knew what to expect before arriving. I had a chance to talk with a post-op gastric sleeve patient during my 1st appointment with my doctor. The test itself was about 451 questions. Really though, you could say it was about 150 questions asked 3 different ways. My best guess is it is done in that format to measure how consistent and true you are answering. I guess that they believe that if you are trying to manipulate the test for whatever reason, by asking the same question 3 different ways mixed in with 450 questions, you won't be able to remember how you answered previously and your true feelings will be revealed. I can't remember the exact answer selections, but I think there were 6 choices - ranging from Always True to Never True. So they might ask, "Have you consistently missed work because of drinking?" and you choose among the 6 answers as to how true the question applies to your situation. 50 or so questions later, it is asked again differently, "I never drink so much alcohol that I have called in sick at work." And they mix in questions about how alcohol has played a part in your family and social life. Your feelings about stealing, is it better to be a child or an adult, how you behave in social situations, how you bad/good feel most people behave, which is the better part of life - being a child or being an adult. I think you get the general idea. The psych interview was pretty brief - about 15 minutes. The questions mainly center around my eating habits and what I knew about diet and nutrition. That I realized that surgery was only a tool and not the solution. That I needed to exercise before and after surgery. And what I thought my ideal body weight should be. I told him that I didn't want to fixate on a specific number and just wanted to look "normal", whatever that weight turned out to be. I had been following a guy on youtube who started out at my weight 350 and was down to 235 and I thought I'd be very happy to look like him. I haven't been down below 270 since 1997! My doctor later told me that my ideal weight is 200 and seem to take it in stride that I'd have no problem getting to that weight. So we'll see. My plan is to set small goals and not get too hung up on reaching a specific weight. Expenses so far: My copay for the doctor has been about $2000 so far ($500 office visits, nutritionist counseling / $1500 surgery cost) My hospital costs so far, $3000 ($1000 blood, ultra sound, chest xrays and EDG / $2000 surgery cost) I had a bit of a panic yesterday. The hospital called to confirm my surgery date and collect payment. They told me the surgery cost was $19,000 and in my mind I'm thinking "NINETEEN THOUSAND DOLLARS!" I wasn't expecting to have to pay out of pocket that much! And then they said,"Your copay is $2000." Fortunately, I hadn't completely stroked out after hearing the first part and was able to get my heart out of my mouth after I realized I wasn't responsible for the full 19k. :-) I fumbled my Discover card out and gave them the digits. Still to be paid (and as far as I know, the last): Pre-op blood typing/urine testing (must be done within 72 hours of surgery) - I'm scheduled to be tested on 12/26 / surgery 12/27 / expected to return home 12/28.

OMG! What did I do! That was the first thing I asked my self day 2 post op! By day 3 I was telling myself this was a big mistake! This is not what I signed up for! What happened to the 3 day recovery and back to normal in a week! What happened to this is the least evasive! 1 out of ten have a problem...hmmm I should have known I would be that 1 in ten that would have a problem! Post op I was on my 5th day not able to take in any liquids without throwing up! OK this is not normal!!!! Let me call my doctor...hhmm OK sip slowly???? I was furios is this women seriously telling me sip slowly! 4 months of appointments and classes and test and research I know to sip SLOWLY!!! Ok forget this off to the ER need to let them know how thirsty I am! Finally someone listening to me so I'm dehydrated weak my lips are so sore and dry and chapped and I'M SO THIRSTY!!! Please just help me drink again!! So they drain the band and give my fluids...awe ice chips they taste as good as a super supreme pizza! I'm now addicted to ice chips and cranberry grape juice ! Nothing has quenched my thirst more than the taste of cran-grape juice!

I am so close to being in one hundred land... I can feel it. How is everyone? I know I haven't been active on here. But I've been emotionally drain and I just didn't feel like writing bad news on my blog. I am back on track now. Today I met with Dr. Richardson for my follow up appointment from my surgery. I am not going to lie to you guys when I got there I was a little nervous. Why? Because this past weekend I had nothing but fried foods and the week before Mother Nature wasn't really nice to me because she made me eat chocolate! I mean half of a Butterfinger one day and the next day I had the other half. Oye on those days I made sure I burn at least 200 calories! Anyway back to today's visit. When I had to get weighed I just looked away and when my nutritionist didn't say nothing I just thought the worse. So I start giving myself the "prep talk" while walking down to the examination room. Once we got in the he start going over my weight history then he said your current weight is 200.8 pounds. I looked at him and said Say what? He repeated it again. I was shocked and still am. I felt pretty bad because I was being a little selfish yesterday. My bestie Jon was having a bad day and I was playing the "wing women" role and was trying to find him a girl to pick up but I was too busy complaining about my calories intake and how about I was going off my healthy living lifestyle. That I absolutely failed my "wing womanly duties!" Dr. Richardson said my incision looked fine and I will see him again next month so we can pick out my surgery date to get my port back in. My guess will be sometime in December but I will know more next month. And! He said I can do the walk for obesity walk this Saturday and I can start running again but I have to keep my incision covered. So guess what I will be doing tomorrow? Resume working on "Operation I want arms like Michelle Obama!" I probably won't resume running again until next weekend. I text was my Bestie Jon and told hope after all the bitching I was doing last night I lost 2 pounds. He laughed congratulated me. I guess I need to calm down just a little bit because I know my support system would let me know if I need to slow down or need to make better food choices. Not only this is new to me but this is new to my support system. I still have a lot to learn but I think I got this! God is good! Thank you for reading Below is a pic of my coworker Kevin (he is the one on the right) He passed away 2 weeks ago. I wish have took an up to date picture with him instead of using this one. I miss him R.I.P my friend.

I never thought I would hee of another that did not like fast food! I not a fan either but I LOVE BREAD all BREADS! And not a chocalate fan unless it come in the form of chocalate cake !

Thank you!! That was a good read and the exercise ideas are great.

Oh ya....I can totally relate with you about the whole food addiction. As my surgeons office told me from the very beginning, this is a tool that they are giving us. We still have to make the changes and make them for life. I know this first handed that this is a struggle. I still struggle with my "head hunger". I am not physically hungry but my head tells me that I wans "something" to eat. As I said, this is a daily struggle for me. I have twenty pound to go till goal but have been at my current weight for about four months. It is up to be to kick it in high gear again to start loosing. I have read on this sight that some people will do the five day clear liquids (like we did to get ready for the surgery) to kind of kick start it again. I have been considering doing this. Also, up until this point I have not been doing a regular exercise program just kind of sporadic when I could find the time. I owe it to myself to make the time. I agree with you about being comfortable in my fat. I don't like to be in the spotlight and get embarrassed if too much is said about my looks and progress.. This is something that will lessen though as people get used to our smaller size. Good luck friend. We both can do this. Anything that is worth doing is not easy and quick.