Hey Jen..... Love your post and can relate to a lot of it. I also looked in the mirror and saw a pretty average looking woman. Growing up i was always a small kid. after my second son i lost all the weight i gain (a whole whopping 35lbs) So yes i delivered via section at 135lbs... omg... looking back now... i thought i was huge back then. Anyway, so that was section #2 and the final one. I would say that LB was not even in the same ball park. my LB surg was so pain free. Most uncomfortable for me was the gas pain after. I equate my TT as being the same as the Sections. LB was like the hysterectomy and the gallbladder surg.
back to the subject... I too looked in the mirror and still thought i looked good, until i saw a picture and didn't recognize myself. I was horrified.....How, when, what did i do to my self. How and the hell did i go from 100lbs to 223lbs... it seemed like over night. So i had the LB done nov. of 09 and i have not looked back. The first few months were hard.. i won't lie. I was thinking that i would have the surg and whammm bammm .. i would wake up skinny. Surprise... nope didn't work that way. So i got my ass in the gym and started working out... and low and behold... the weight kept coming off...Slow, but it was going away. The first year i lost 60lb and the second 20.... i have been about the same for a while now.... i did put back a few since my hubby lost his job only because he is 6'4" and can eat anything...
Ohhhh FYI: I too carry a lot of weight in my chest... I started at a 44H bra... and 80lbs later.... im only a 36G... So don't count on them all going away. if in the past you have lost in the boobs... then maybe there is hope for you. But every time i lost weight in the past... boobs always was the last too go...
Go in with a positive out look, keep telling your self.... Self, i will do this... I will do this... I will do this..... And you will. All the best too you...