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I'm day six today! I truly believe its "emotionally attached to food." I have same attachment I'm normally super busy, but now that I'm home, I'm watching T.V and BOY do they advertise FOOD! Hope GOD helps us! Good Luck!

I'm into week 3 and I'm 21 lbs down since surgery 40 since my heaviest. Eating less than 1/4 of a cup of food at meals, which doesn't amount to many calories, so still struggling with fatigue. BUT - I am walking a mile now in my 30 minutes of required daily walking. (PITIFUL, I know, since I used to jog 3 miles in 45 minutes.) So I called the nurse to ask when I can swallow pills again and found out I have 3 more weeks of the nasty liquid/chewable crap. She shared with me that I really HAVE to get the 60 grams of protein in a day OR ELSE my hair will start falling out. So now I'm serious. Back to the gross protein drinks. Thinking about going to Goodwill to find some shorts since mine are about to fall off. HOORAY! My belly STILL looks like a train wreck, but oh well, I'll not be wearing a bikini anytime soon. And I think I might have found a shoulder under all my vanishing fat! Looking forward to finding a WAIST eventually.

Eating my stress away, and meeting Mrs. Strange It's one of those days! Have you ever had one? Where you go to sleep early you wake up late your hubby has been up hours ahead of you and is in a bad mood because while you were sleeping the insert curse word here (kids) yes that's the word I was talking about, went around the house doing their own thing with regard to nothing and no one. So that ticked him off and rightfully so, if I wasn't so tired I'd be upset about it too, but good grief I am sooooo tired of the drama and the stress. It seems like it's my life really, it's not just since surgery though surgery has changed the way I think about it all. Before surgery it was easy to ride to the local pharmacy or corner store and pick up a bag of chocolate go home and eat my stress and fustration away. Today it's not so easy to do. Not because I don't want some, but because I think about all I have gone through in the last month, and it's just not worth it to go backwards. I want to move ahead, I want to be healthy and bag of chocolate is not the healthiest choice for me to make and I wouldn't be able to eat a whole bag and I might just end up not enjoying it anyway since I have no desire for it to begin with. This is were Mrs. Strange comes in, that's how I feel about it all. As if there was this insecure and scared part of me that has had to grow up and deal with these little every day and not so little but for me just about every day!!!! Stressors. She has had to grow up and can't have her bag of candy, she has to deal with the feelings and the issues and cope with them in another way. She's not doing a bad job if I do say so myself, but in these moments….it all feels so strange. I feel so strange. I am not used to floundering through my feelings and my emotions, I'm used to just dealing with it head on and medicating it later with a bag of candy! I'm not as familiar with Mrs. Strange as I am with Mr. Hershey! Though I am getting to know her a little more each day. Mr. Band-it introduced me to her about a month ago. Mr. Band-it and I bonded instantly the day after surgery, he was part of my life. It's this new Mrs. Strange, who walks away from the candy isle and heads to the gym to work off her fustration and stress. Who sits here and watches all her co-works come up to the desk to take cookies out of the tin, and pretzles out of the bucket and thinks to herself as they all complain about eating yet another cookie, it would serve them right if I super glued the container shut. At least I would have something to laugh at watching them fight to get it open so they could reach those cookies and pretzles! I shared that thought out loud, and my boss laughed but later gave me that sideways look before he dived into the pretzle bucket, I'm sure wondering if I actually did or would super glue it shut Mrs. Strange has a way about her, but I’m starting to like her better every day! She and Mr. Band-It are getting along very well and helping me to make a lot of positive changes in my life.

Thank you for your honesty. I am pre op and I am the kind of person who wants to know the good, the bad and the ugly to give me the full perspective of what I could endure. I know this surgery is just rainbows and butterflies. Great post!

I can't wait to find my hipbones again - 3 weeks out, you're doing fine. Remember, you had major surgery and now have serious calorie restriction. 1st you heal, and then you can beat yourself up for not jogging, or running a marathon.

I am sorry that someone was rude to you in that way.. Sadly I think our current society has some of the rudest and disrespectful people in it ever. I took grandkids to a rodeo one night.. grown men sitting behind us were f'ing this and f'ing that.. I finally had enough and stood up and asked them if they did not see the children? or do they kiss their mama with those mouths? they started to get smart with me about the time my 6'4 " son in law walked up... lol they shut up and moved..You hate to have confrontation with people but I think people are too scared to say anything to rude people.. thank goodness your friend wasn't scared... that's okay you know in your heart who is the best person and Karma is a interesting thing.. what goes around comes around eventually...

It's 7:15am here in SoCal. You're probably in the midst of your procedure. I'm thinking about you....and I'm EXCITED for you! Please let us know how you're doing, when you're up to it. This is the first day of the REST of your life :-) You've done a really good thing for yourself.....