I read your post today and left and am now back, I want to say something to brighten your day or change your perspective, but I don't know what to say.
All of these things are important and you deserve to feel overwhelmed.
I don't know when and I don't know how, but eventually things will work themselves out, or you will see how these things helped you grow, idk, I really wish you the best, and believe things will get better! Good luck and take care.