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I'm not sure why and I'm not sure how, but early on in my life I learned to lie to myself about many things, but most importantly about what I ate. It is one of the things that I am having to unlearn in order for my band to work for me. Today, even though I ate less than anyone at the table, I over ate and I'm not ashamed, I'm not guilty. I made a choice, and went past my soft stop. Yes I was uncomfortable. No, I didn't PB or vomit. No I didn't stretch my pouch or cause my band to slip. But the important part, I am not going to lie to myself about what I did. I am going to log the calories (as best I can), I am going to eat lightly tonight (protein shake) and I am going to go back to my normal eating pattern because if I eat like I did today on a regular basis I won't lose any more weight.

I think at some point....we all lie to ourselves about how much we ate. When I finally got honest and started logging my food....I was mortified! Ignorance was bliss...or was it? Honesty is a big part of the process. Guilt and Shame shouldn't be! You are an inspiration to a lot of us! Thank you for sharing.

I'm ending day 2 of my "Liver Shrinking Diet" I have to be honest and say that I've been in tears most of it. I started out with my premeire protein drink nd made it into a smoothly with ice and 1/2 a banana. It took me or ever to get it down but I felt satisfied.....until about 2 hours later. So I decided to have a Cup of cottage cheese for 200 Calories instead of the 160 in protein drink and the 50 in banana. I enjoyed chewing the cottage cheese and took tiny bites practicing hw my post op eating should be. But.... About 2pm I was starving again. So I tired to fill up on water and iced tea. Chatted with friends online and just quietly cried. I mean SERIOSLY if i was ABLE to eat only 870 calories a day, then I wouldn't be 150 pounds over weight!! So hubby took me out f the house to get some hanging potted plants for the back yard. We picked him up some baked chicken and veggies etc for His next couple of meals. I asked him to just Not eat any pizza on front of me. He understands and agrees. I've been called by the anesthesia department and just waiting for hosp call tomorrow or Fri with Surgery time. I can and WILL do this. I've lost 6 pounds since Sunday so will def meet my goal of losing 10lb a week before surgery. But I gotta say....it's Not an Easy Road.

You need to get a restraining order and get him out of your life. I do not know how you will ever have successful weight loss with all these problems going on. Concentrate on your child, your job and your diet. Best of luck to you.

Hang in there! If I were in your shoes I wouldn't want my child to grown up with drunken father I hope he gets all the help he needs! Best luck to u!

HELLO Y'ALL!!! I don't have much to report. Life has been pretty good. Because of my workload, going to the gym has been pretty impossible. Because of that, I am very careful with my food intake. Speaking of food intake, I am able to eat more!! PRETTY SCARY :ph34r: I remember at the beginning, I wanted to eat more. Now that I can, I wish I could go back to the days where two bites was all I needed :wub: But life goes on!!! HAPPY MOMENTS: ​No seat belt extender needed ( Flew to NY) My daughter's friends called my skinny SHAMEFUL MOMENT: I ate half a bag of cheetos

I'm on Day 2 of 7....it sucks. I'm hungry, have already cheated a little (improvised) to help me get thru it. My surgery is Monday. I'm sooo excited. I wondered today if my Liver has shrunk any too. =~}

i feel guilty of i don't measure my food and perhaps maybe....just maybe go over the amount ..both physically and calories i should be eating. i have great resistance with the sleeve but never great fear i Will stretch it out . i was in nyc for business and are more than usual yesterday.....i wasnt going to get on the scale till Monday in case i gained ( lost 3 lbs) i wish i could lose the guilt and other issues with food, control...etc....

Thanks! Now waiting for pg 3

Funny I read your blog and it bought tears to my eyes as I sit back and realize just how much trouble im in. You are so lucky. I am married but by words only we have a torterous horrible existance of a marriage, my husband calls me every name in the book pertaining to fat he is in the works of brainwashing my 6 year old boy to go against me my son actually called me fatty tonight i cant tell you how awesome that felt, my husband is just sitting back waiting for me to fail at this as I did with my other attempts at weightloss. I loved your blog and wish I had your support system but unfortunayely im on my own. I know your life isnt easy the word twins is in the mix, lol my neices are twins 2 years old lord a handful !!! But you nailed it self worth is a huge word and powerful. I think I need to find some before I go in for my sugery. You are a lucky lady. Just remember when things get crazy and hectic and Im sure they do quite alot, there is one of your lines I loved, I got this. so just remember that you got this and hopefully so will I.