I'm a counselor. I just did a group on holiday blues with the patients. We have such high expectations with the holidays, and that includes food, and more food. I'm a little down this year too. I think it is the combination of hating where I work, battling colds and other illnesses, Christmas foods, and fear (of the surgery, recent events.) We put a lot of pressure on ourselves to make this season perfect.
This year, my house is mess, I'm bummed. I'm run down and tired. I didn't send Christmas cards, I'm stressed out. It's a lot of things. But I got together the important stuff. I'll be with family, and I think my little girl will enjoy the day. It's not going to be a knock-your-socks-off kind of Christmas, but it's ok.
My surgery is scheduled for February 7th. While I wish it was earlier, I'm kind of glad my first challenge will NOT be Christmas, right out of the gate. Valentine's Day seems less of a threat!
Enjoy what you can, and at least try to have a peaceful day on December 25th.