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I love the movie Fried Green Tomatoes (1991) with Kathy Bates, Jessica Tandy, it’s a must see so rent it if you've never seen it. This is one of my favorite scenes…… Just wanted to share it with everyone. I never get mad, Mrs. Threadgoode. Never! The way I was raised it was bad manners. Well, I got mad and it felt terrific. I felt like I could beat the sh*t outta all those punks! Excuse my language. Just beat 'em to a pulp! Beat 'em till they begged for mercy. Towanda, the avenger! After I wipe out all the punks of this world, I'll take on the wife beaters, like Frank Bennett, and machine gun their genitals. Towanda will go on the rampage. I'll put tiny bombs in Penthouse and Playboy... so they'll explode when you open 'em. I'll ban all fashion models who weigh less than 130 pounds. I'll give half the military budget to people over 65... and declare wrinkles sexually desirable. Towanda, righter of wrongs, queen beyond compare! How many of them hormones you takin', honey

Just got back from a beautiful wedding. I thought they would have food I could eat, so no worries. Well I was wrong, there was all pasta, and I'm on the Adkins type pre diet. Well thankfully they had salad and for the kids they had chicken nuggets. So I peeled off the breading from the chicken and cut it up in my salad and made my own dinner. Got some exercise from dancing. Any other diet I would have said, oh well, and ate what was there. I think I'm finally learning to adjust food to my requirements, not just go with the flow. I hope I always stay true!

Well it's been 11 days since my surgery and i feel fantastic! (15 lbs down) however thanksgiving day was a real torture for me!! This is the first thanksgiving i spend with my mom (she lives out of the country) and she came to visit, therefore it was a big deal for me, we cooked EVERYTHING thats soooo delicious and at the same time sooooo bad for our health! As everybody ate i started making up "excuses" and trying to convince myself to try something mushy even though im still on phase 2 (protein shakes and full liquids) so stubborn that I am, i tried a tiny bit of mashed potatoes and a piece of dark meat turkey... everything was fine and dandy until the cold sweats and the nausea started!!! I felt HORRIBLE!!! and I was so mad at myself for not following instructions! If your doctor says DO NOT EAT SOLIDS guess what?! DONT! they know what they're doing and that's why they're professionals! So after i ate i was trying for about an hour to debate whether i should or shouldn't vomit, and after taking zofran to calm the nausea i promised to myself never to eat solids until my stomach is ready to handle it. I guess what i'm trying to say is cheating it's NOT worth it!! At the end of the day the food will always be there so compromising our health and well being for food it's not worth it. Needless to say, it ruined my thanksgiving and everybodys (Since they were worried about me)

I'm feeling pretty well. I did quite a bit of walking today. I haven't taken any pain meds since last night and I didn't take very much then. I am still a little sore. I slept in the bed for the first time last night instead of the chair. It was pretty good. I used a pillow against my stomach and laid on my side and even mostly on my tummy for a little bit too. I did still have pain when I moved around some. Also, getting up and down from chairs and bending still hurts. My incisions are healing nicely. They are starting to itch. I have a pretty gigantic bruise around one of the incisions too. My daughter was horrified to see it, but she insisted... haha I haven't stuck to my "not weighing myself until the 2 week appointment" thing. This morning I was down all my surgery gaining minus 4 more pounds. It is really exciting! I want to get a daily planner and start tracking how much exercise I do and also my weight. I'm questioning the weight thing though... I don't want to be soooo focused on weight that it's almost an obsession. I just want to be healthy. Maybe I will do weekly weight and measurements? I'm not sure... I for sure want to track how many minutes I'm exercising and how often though. Today I've kind of had an issue with getting enough water in. I've been keeping busy so kind of let it slide. Now I'm to the point where I'm feeling thirsty... which makes me want to take big drinks of water and make the thirst go away. HA, not cool. It hurts and gurgles and bubbles on the way down. It's so strange! Also, I ate two "bad" things since my surgery. Both caused me to get pretty bad diarrhea. The first was a cheese soup with sour cream and Velveeta in it... which is fatty and not a good choice, but it did fit under my category so I had a few bites. It was SOOOO good too haha. The second one was the Jell-O/cream cheese part off the top of a pretzel salad (last night). Jell-O is on my list so I thought it would be ok even though I knew cream cheese wasn't a good choice. I don't mind that I got bad reactions to both. I have learned my lesson and that will help me from making those bad choices in the future.

I haven't posted anything in a really long time. I do get on and read others posts just haven't had much to talk about myself. But I FINALLY have something good to report! I finally got my surgery approval! My insurance required a 3 month supervised diet and exercise program. I had to talk regularly with one of their nurses as a liaison. I thought, mistakenly, that that sufficed as the supervision but when the 3 months were over I learned that that was NOT what they meant. Soooo, the process had to start all over again! Finally, completed that and got all the other tests/paper work submitted. I checked with my surgeon's office on Monday but they still hadn't heard anything (all the paperwork, etc. Had been submitted for a few weeks). Then on Wednesday I finally got the call from the insurance nurse as well as the coordinator from my surgeon's office! Really excited but also REALLY nervous! I'm not sure on the exact surgery date-- either Dec18th or Jan15th. Will know for sure next week. I'm anxious about the 2 week liquid diet. Any advice? Would live to hear from anyone about that! Guess that's all for now!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I sure did! It was a little out of my ordinary, but a wonderful holiday and a day off from work. Woke up and watched a bit of tv, waiting for Ty to wake up. Then we had breakfast and went and saw an early movie. We saw Red Dawn.... it was fantastic!!! I couldn't believe it! Then we drove back to Ty's hotel and when we got there we realized we had nothing to do and nothing was really open for us to do anything... so we decided to see another movie! We had lunch then headed back to the theater... to see... Pitch Perfect. Again! Another hit! It was awesome! Then after the movie we laid around the hotel for a bit, then decided to go see my family for a bit and maybe get a free dinner out of it... so we drove over to Seattle and saw a small bit of my family. Dinner was awesome and then we played a few games. I was able to tell my mom that I am about to start my Lap-Band journey, and she is pretty excited for me. Then I said goodbye to Ty (since he is TDY in Everett) and I went and barely caught the ferry home. And now, I am ready for bed and ready to get tomorrow at work out of my way... lol we shall see if I have to work on Saturday. I just want it to be Wednesday soooo bad!! Well, have a great night everyone!

So I have set up the first 4 appointments needed to start everything! And I'm so happy about it! 1st appointment: Novemeber 28th (nutritionist) 2nd appointment: Novemeber 30th (doctor for recommendation letter) 3rd appointment: Decemeber 20th (nutritionist <--- this one is tentative because of work, but I'm surveillance be able to go) 4th appointment: January 25th (nutritionist) I may have another appointment after that, but I won't know until my first appointment on Wednesday, I have already seen this nutritionist, but it was in July and the person I was talking to to make all these appointments wasn't able to tell me if it would count. I hope it does. If it were to count then I could possibly be banded at the end of February, if not.... Then march. Which I'm ok with, because this is all happening about a month and a half faster than I though it would happen. Eeep! Well I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving!

IT HAS BEEN FIVE MONTHS SINCE MY LIFE CHANGED!! I walked in this morning wearing a new outfit. Complete chaos lol!!!! My "friend" started acting up again. Ever since my surgery, she started a crazy eating pattern and exercise day and night it seems like. She sat there and said NOTHING. Once the other coworkers walked away, we started discussing the day and plans for the weekend. She found a new cool place and was thinking of going there Saturday night. I said awesome and then she said this: this is going to be fun, although I am not sure of "this" new you. You are no longer the beautiful SAFE friend. WTF?!? I smiled and said " what you mean to say is, I am no longer the fat friend and you have seen nothing yet cupcake" This is fuel for me. I am determine to be the beautiful, skinny, unsafe friend. Her and others that think like her, have no idea what's coming P.S I learned today (from my NUT) it is important to keep my calories up above 600 calories. For my body to process protein properly and boost weight loss, my caloric intake have to be at a good level. From 600 to 800 but no higher than 1000 with exercise of course.

Thanksgiving is next week and with that is the all too famous family dinner… I will have my band portion, 3-4oz of turkey, ½ green beans, sweet potatoes & carrots, ¼ cup stuffing. I will be first in line and first to sit down at the table (my family makes me go first cause it takes me longer to eat). I will take my small bite and chew chew chew, then I’ll wait about a minute. In the mean time I’ll watch as my family members take bites the size of Mt Everest, chew 3 times and swallow while preparing the next bite… “Did you taste that?” “Can you taste the juices in the turkey?” “What about the stuffing? Can you taste the pecans and bacon?” “Oh my, don’t forget to breathe…” Wow, do people eat fast? My family sure does! So, I eat and watch. Everyone is finished except me. I tell my mother to go ahead and serve dessert while I finish my meal. Again, they wolf it down. “Hey, savor the bites I spent hours in the kitchen making those pies. Enjoy them, please!” I finally finish my dinner as my mother and niece finish clearing the table. The men make their way into the living room moaning and groaning about how full they are….. Me I am satisfied! Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!

I went shopping today for sweaters. It appears that I am cold a lot these days & I don’t have many long sleeve tops that fit. So I picked out a few tops and walked by the jeans…. Out of complete curiosity I picked out a couple of different style in size 10 (currently size 12). Holy Sh*t they fit!!!!! I was dancing around in that dressing room and laughing. I’m sure the attendee thought I was nuts (ok I know I am but that’s a different story). That explains why the size 16 pants that I wore today bugged me so much; they were 3 sizes too big. Wow I don’t even know how old I was the last time I was size 10, 9 maybe 10 years old?? I am so floored, I’m numb.