Im sorry I didnt see this til now! All the things you are feeling are so normal! We all worry that we wont stay on the wagon after, and we will all fall off at some point. the great thing is we learn to get right back on and not let guilt send us into a downward spiral. also when you do slip, its much less because we dont have room or we dump. I know you've been working hard on your preop stuff and I know you'll make your goal and get a date! Relatioships are hard, and this process puts stress on them. Joel and I seperated for half the summer as I was preparing for this. It helped us both realize how much we love and need each other. After telling him that I needed his support unconditionally and needed him to get involved and go to group and appointments he is beginning to understand the role of food as an addiction. Never being overweight, he didnt get the internal struggle we have with food. grioup is helping him get it. I hope your hubby comes around and gets positive and supportive for you. Losing weight has improved our intimate life not only because I have lost weight, but because I have gained confidence. You will too and I hope it helps your relationship. I do agree counseling would help too. Maybe go sometimes alone and sometimes together. If you were best friends before you can get back there, as long as youre both willing to try. Love you girl! See you monday!!