You are not alone. You are important to us here at the forum. Let us help you through this. I'm sending a very big tight cyber {{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}. Depression is real, but there is always hope. We are not on this earth to see through one another, but to see one another through. When we get through this, we'll all still be here and so will you. You can survive!
I can't really understand what you are feeling, but we can offer our compassion.
We will not leave you or abandon you. We care about you. I love you because you are human and I believe in helping our fellow man.
We'll get through this together.
I'm sorry you're in so much pain. We are NOT going to leave you!
Let us help you!