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i wish yesterday was my last day of work.... Those people are stressing me out! A coworker of mine yesterday asked me when surgery was (I've only told them I need to get my lapband corrected....they don't know I'm getting the sleeve!) so I told her it was next Tuesday.... In a rude attitude, her response was "so your getting the lapband removed right? Because I don't see why you can't lose the weight with just diet and exercise!" breathe Tiffany........breathe........wooosah!!!!! Woooosah!!!!! this coworker of mine literally weighs 93lbs, has never had an eating problem in her life.... She's just this cute, tiny little Asian woman, about 35-40 years old.......and she's got the nerve to tell someone 3x's her size that 'diet and exercise' a going to fix me????!!!!! Oh hell no! I was so upset at that point.... I honestly didn't know how to respond to that. I just simply and softly responded with "I'm sure you have no clue what it's like to be this big and this disgusted in yourself. I'm glad diet and exercise work for you, but this is my body and my choice" the look on her face was pure stunned..... I'm pretty sure no one has ever responded to her rudeness like that before.... I'm so tired of people telling me what I should and should not do with this body of mine.... "god gave you this body" yes....he did..... And unfortunately, I ruined it and I'm trying to get it back.....so shove off! lord grant me the strength to continue to deal with these haters.... Help me see that they motivating me to work harder at the body I want! anyone else have these issues with friends/family/coworkers who don't know what it's like being like us? how did you deal with it?

Wow, when they said I might have hair loss they weren't kidding! I just started my Bosley shampoo/conditioner/hair regrowth treatments and I hope that they kick in soon. Every time I shower I literally have hunks of hair falling out into my hands. Yuck! I'm not exactly happy about this, but I'm resigned that its happening and will continue to happen for awhile. On the other hand, I'm so DAMNED excited that I'm 9 itty bitty pounds away from ONEDERLAND! I haven't been this weight since college. I went shopping the other day and was able to find clothing in the regular section of the store. I about started to cry! Actually my friends had to keep pulling me away from the plus size clothes because I kept thinking that's where I needed to be. I actually where between a L and a XL in shirts and am a 14 in pants. Not bad since I started at almost a 3XL and a size 24! I look into the mirror and I think "I look pretty". It's been sooooo long since I thought that. I'm still flabbergasted about how much my life has changed in a little over 3 months. This is the BEST decision I've ever made. I'm hoping to lose a full 100 pounds by my sixth month surgiversary. That will put me at the weight I was my senior year of high school at 180. Then I just need to lose 40 more itty bitty pounds and will be at my doctor's suggested weight for my height and body build. I'm going on a rockin' vacation in February and hope to be, if not at my goal weight, to be within spitting distance of it. Thank GOD I decided to do this. I don't regret a moment of the pain, crazy hormones, or stress that I've gone through over the last few months. Literally this has been the best decision EVER. Now, if only my hair would stop falling out.....*amused*

my doctor told me I needed to be on a 1200 calorie diet.... So far, so good. I've lost 8lbs! today for lunch I decided to make a turkey wrap..... So last night I went to the grocery store, bought my ingredients and made my hubby and myself some lunch.... 374 calories later, we are enjoying the healthiest most delicious turkey lunch wrap on the planet LOL Low carb smart & delicious tortillas= 80 calories (regular tortillas are as much as 150 calories!!!) Buddig turkey deli slices (90 calorie package, divided into one wrap for each of us= 45 calories) 1 small haas avocado (224 calories, 1/2 each= 112 calories) 1/2 tomato, cut into slices = 16 calories Classic ranch dressing (ONLY 1tbsp!) = 50 calories Lucerne Mexican four cheese blend (1/4 cup) = 55 calories Iceberg salad, lettuce = 10 calories. <---- AWESOME!!!!! Raw lemon juice 0.5fl oz = 4 calories Total calories = 374 first I heated up my tortilla for 10 seconds....cold tortillas are gross lol Second, I mixed 1/2 avocado with 1tbsp ranch and 0.5fl oz lemon juice. Next, I layered. Tortilla, avocado-ranch mix, turkey slices, lettuce, tomato, cheese and wrap it like a burrito and cut it in half. Finally, enjoy Hope you liked it as much as I did

so I've been reading this book called the everything post weight loss surgery cookbook. It's got everything from before surgery to surgery diet foods to 'Ive hit a plateau, now what?' I'm so ready for surgery.... I feel so prepared..... I know it's going to be a swift kick in my behind once I get out of surgery when I realize I wasn't ready but until then I'm just going to go with I'm ready for this purchased all my sugar free jello, crystal lights and waters....I got sodium free broths just in case.... Protein packets will be purchased Friday, liquid vitamins will be purchased as soon as the doctor tells me what I need..... But I feel like something's missing????

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I am not sure where the phrase was coined but "living large" no longer has negative connotations for me! I used to hear that and think instantly of my size. Now it is about how I want to live my life. Only 3 weeks post op and I already am feeling like a new person. I feel much more confident in myself and am already feeling revitalized and a renewed outlook on the future. I have found myself wandering the clothing aisles at stores and not dreading looking at size 22 but venturing down a few sizes thinking that will be me soon!!!! I had heard the "BMI" term used over the years and never gave it much thought before this surgery. Now, I am excited by that #. I have had two visits with the surgeon post-op so far and the # has dropped from 50.5 to 45.5 already! If I can make that significant of a difference in it in just weeks, imagine months from now!!! I have found strength to not long for my (former) favorite foods, even when they smell and look so good within my reach. It is actually quite empowering to have that will power now. I am not saying I will never mess up, but that "flub" doesn't have to define me and doesn't mean I am completely off the wagon. It just means I need to make better choices for my next meal. Heck, people that are healthy and thin overeat or indulge from time to time. It's all about moderation and being accountable to myself. I know I can do this. Admittedly, the first couple days I had a few "feel sorry for myself" moments but I got myself into this and I need to get myself out! My goals are not to look like Cindy Crawford or Kim Kardashian. My goals are what will make me feel good, not worrying about going to events where there may be a turnstyle, not having to retake photos all the time because I don't like how I look in them, getting off BP meds, hopefully ridding myself of sleep apnea and then all the little things - enjoying going clothes shopping in the misses (not women's) dept, not tiring as easily, crossing my legs (cannot wait for that, even if it isn't good for your circulation), and my goal for next summer - going to the amusement park I have avoided for years!!!! No time for pity parties ~ time to start LIVING LARGE!!!