I have only known FAT. I was made fun of as a child, picked on by my family and bullied in high school. Tearful now just typing this. I lost a lot of weight on my own after college because I was so active. Two years after my daughters birth, I ballooned to 217 (I weighed 204 the day she was born). That's when I knew I needed help. I do feel great at 175, more active and I workout daily so I figure I have just let myself settle here. I do so well during the day, it's the evening when my family wants to watch a movie and snack. I guess it comes down to good old fashioned self control. And i'm so hard on myself when i don't eat like i should. I can wake up and my first thought is the regret of what I ate the night before
With my weight loss, I have noticed some attention from men, nothing inappropriate but compliments that seem genuine but I noticed I struggle with that greatly! I am very uncomfortable with that attention. My husband says he will help me at night. We are going shopping for 100 cal weight watcher snacks and i get one per night and I'm going to kick up my exercising. We both feel if I can get below 170 I will have proven to myself there is nothing to be afraid of. I am blessed with an understanding husband/friend. Thanks for your comments. Sometimes, I do feel all alone with these crazy thoughts.