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Ok, sorry one day late, but I was BEAT yesterday!! There was a special workout class for Zumba yesterday as in we were supposed to all wear red, white and blue. AHA...ok. I wore my Texas Rangers t shirt. But I was mistaken for the time and got there an hour early so I was convinced by an older woman to join in on the class that was going on- a Nike Fit boot camp!!!! That class killed me more than Zumba, but I went forward. It was the same instructor who kept mentioning that Zumba followed the boot camp and she challenged/invited people to do both. So I did. I was only able to do 23 minutes of Zumba before I cut out. I just couldnt lift my legs or arms for it. I felt like a rag doll. But I weighed before I left and it was 245. So Ive recovered some of the ground I had lost last week, yay! Afterwards we spent the 4th of July at Six Flags over Texas. Walked the whole park from 4-9pm and then we went to a firework festival in Bedford, more walking. Probably another mile or so. Now this morning I can barely walk, hahaha.

Aw Ginny, It will happen, you just can't shut off your mind, or anyone else's for that matter, I did a lot of catch up reading as well, nothing to do with weight loss either! I had my post-op today and will blog about it later. I'm so happy for you and EVERYONE who has made this step, also happy that I could ease your mind because trust me I worry enough about everything for everybody! Kiss Kiss

With yesterday being the 4th of July naturally my husband and kids were overly excited about going to watch the firework show, I on the other hand was far less enthusiastic. When getting ready (as usual) this overwhelming sense of disgust and depression takes over me. Nothing fits, nothing looks or feels right. I feel so out of place in large crowds. I'm not a shy person at all and I remember the time I use to enjoy crowds. I cheered in high school and college for a min. I loved crowds! The thing is when my attitude sucks I don't think I'm pleasant to be around. Who else has felt this way? And it seems as though the closer I get to picking a surgery day, the more I realize (or rather the more I begin to admit to myself) that my weight is way out of control!

So today is officially 7 days since my surgery. One week. Every day seemed to pass by slowly, but I can't believe it's already a week. I thought I would never get here! The good part: yes I have already started loosing weight! yay! weigh in at the doc's office manana. Also, no pain when I am just relaxing. I have been off pain meds for several days The bad: I knew what the diet would be like before I went under the knife, but it is so much harder than I thought it would be. I never imagined wishing for crackers and cereal as much as I do now. As you all know, the first week is jello, popsicles, and broth. I cannot wait for the end of week 2! Also, sneezing sucks, lol! As a promise to myself and who ever is reading, I will share all the good and bad about living with the band and how it has changed my life. BTW, who am I? 25 yo 5'1" F med student (1 year left!!!) who weighed 227.5 (BMI 43) as of 6/21/12. I have fought with my weight for all of my life just like many here. I feel like I've tried it all. Fad diets. Weight Watchers (which did work while I was honestly doing it). Calorie Counting. It's just when I am not honestly putting all my energy into dieting, I gain it all back. I don't have any medical problems. I have seen what obesity can do to a person from the medical, familial, and personal stand point and I didn't want to find myself 15 years from now in a hole I can't get myself out of medically. I want to enjoy being young. Wear a swimsuit on the beach without being embarrassed. When I have kids, I want to be able to run around with them and not be worn out. When I see my patients and tell them about healthy eating and lifestyles, I don't want them to think, "yeah, like she knows!" I know I will always have a battle with my weight, but won't it be nice to fight while I'm a healthy weight because I took a leap of faith that this surgery would be the right choice for me? Yup, it will be nice.

This post made me cry. It's so hopeful and true. I read it and feel such joy to be able to look forward to these same moments..and knowing that all of these same things will zoom through my mind. That's what I was truly worried about was the time I'm taking off of work and all of the "free time" I would have to think about what I "had done" although I know I will still have these thoughts it makes me hopeful to read this and makes me smile. 2 more weeks until I am banded and just want to thank you for such an awesome post!

Happy 1 weekversary!! Truer words have never been spoken.

Thanks for sharing your letter to self. I start my pre-op diet on July 6, and will keep this little nugget in mind. Each day at a time.

Good Luck to you....I to woke up with a great out look on it all....I told myself if i want to loose faster..I have to work harder...so I set my alarm for a hr early and I went for a good fast walk ( with out the kids) and I am going to work extra hard on portion control......OOO i use fitness pal and logged it out early in the night and told myself...I was done no going back and adding to it....fingers crossed it worked....God is Good !