I am so so sorry. I wish I could share my insurance with you. What are the chances of you being able to get a correction? You had surgery in Mexico, right? What does the surgeon say?
You're not pissing on anyone's rainbow. Your honesty about your situation will help others decide if this is the right thing for them to do.
I get what you're saying about not wanting to eat anywhere but home. I hate, hate eating at work, but since that's where I spend 8 hours of my day, I have to.
I'm really worried about you, please don't keep all of this to yourself. I wish I knew how to help you.