You are not alone sweet girl. I go up and down also. I snuck a cookie and never wrote about it (if no one sees it but me, it did not happen lol, out of sight out of mind.
I read way more than I post. I read yours just do not post .... sorry.
You deserve a pity party after all you have been through. I have balloons you supply the pretend cake.
It is all going to work out, you are going to look back one day exactly why you had to go through all of this.
I will pray for you and will continue to also. I promise! I pray your appitite subsides. You have to get those bad carbs out of your system for a few days in order for the appeitite to not be so strong. You can do it. You must be stronger than you realize , think of all the things you been through and your still here concerned, not jumping over the cliff at Dairy Queen.
Take it easy on yourself, your doing good.
Remember this, it is not a race..... it is one day at a time, everyday. We all have bad days eating the wrong things.
It's funny, I had not posted a topic in a few weeks and just got done posting one, asking others how good they were about what they eat. See... we all struggle, that why we had to have surgery. You are right where you are suppose to be.
((((big hug lady)))