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we all have a self destruct button and sometimes we just press it.. u wrote down all that u felt and did and that in itself often will put into perspective what actually happened. The wrong thing to do would be to repeat what u did again and again and again, its done now, put that day away as a bad one and move on to a better one. footnote .. dont buy stuff like that again !

I appreciate you for sharing your food binging trigger being linked to sadness and feeling sorry for yourself. I certainly have experienced that as well...feeling unloved, doing too much for others expecting a thankyou, love, attention...not getting it and then binging as I dull the emotional pain. My bigger issue is stress related. I have to drive 2 hours to have my apts related to my lapband surgery 3/21/12. Every time I passed a hurdle apt., I would stop somewhere on the way home and buy a lb. of fudge or go out to eat by myself. I felt I needed to treat myself because I put myself out so much and risked so much in the pre op apt(gas money, difficult traffic, extensive medical history, psych interview, nutritionist interview, hospital preop etc). I am 80 lbs over ideal weight with many comorbidities because I use food for reasons other than hunger"my drug of choice". I have heard "insanity is doing the same thing over and over , expecting different results" We all need to learn new ways to deal with our emotions. I am considering this a rebirth, a new baby stomach and a new way of thinking. It is hard to change but we are all brave for trying to improve our lives and health. MelVan

If people are saying things about you then they aren't friends anyway and who needs friends like that. You are right those that are close to you are the only ones that matter. My sister has a saying that I just love. " If they (people) aren't your direct food chain then they don't matter" Don't let yourself get down because they are jealous of you and don't know the real you. You don't have to explain yourself to others if you don't want to and if you do then you will. I have had some awesome support from my family, at least again the ones that matter, some friends and some co workers but others not so much and that is ok because they don't live my life and I have made the best decision for me and my family. Keep your chin up, you are doing great.

welcome to the site! congrats on your weight loss:)

Word, peoples perception of anyone that does a procedure for weight loss is sometimes hurtful and demeaning. They think its cheating, and that its the easy way to loose weight. HA , they don''t have to eat the smaller portions or cut out alot of foods that we have loved all our lives. feel the stucks or the constipation, or be compared to someone else they know that got it done. I hate when Im compared to someone else that got it done. "I didn't have that gaunt sick look like so and so" I just said we are all different. You are right we shouldn;t have to explain it, what I do do, is tell people that I feel better, look better.

Keep working hard and use it as a motivator! Most people have responded positively to my weight loss and have also been supportive. If they are talking about you and you don't mind telling them about your surgery, than do it! Some people need to be educated. I hate when people comment how fast I've lost weight and start talking about having the surgery because they think it's some miracle that will make you drop all this weight. I explain to all of them that my band HELPS me lose weight and I couldn't lose all this without it but I have made a serious lifestyle change as far as my eating habits and exercise goes. Keep going, you're looking great

Yes, I dealt with it and I came out fine. Surgery was March 2,2012 once they gave me the cocktail, I was out when I woke up I was in recovery. I was so scared of all of those things. But what happens if u don't have the surgery? Remain optimistic and pray. It's practically normal to have fear. Praying for a safe surgery for you. Stay focused and know that you are doing the right thing for you. It will all work out. Good luck.