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Well, it's been a while since I last wrote on here. Just been trying to concentrate on eating right, getting in my protein, protein, protein! I have found the only protein shake I can tolerate is the Muscle Milk light in chocolate. Only 100 calories, 5g of carbs, and 15g of protein. I will admit since I am into the mushy/soft stage that I have been worried about eating "food" again and not losing weight anymore. Then I have to slap myself back to reality and realize what I am eating now is in no way comparable to what I was literally shoveling in my mouth a month ago. I have been able to measure my food and feel satisfied with hardly anything to eat and it's unbelievable to me how I ate before surgery. I mean I literally just shoveled food in my mouth and would never be satisifed. Now don't get me wrong there have been a few days I have said to myself "what have I done?!" It's only been two weeks and some days I can see that I have lost weight and inches and then I put on something else another day and I see the same old fat ass in the mirror and I am so pissed off. (excuse my language). But I think all this is normal??? I hope so anyway. I have been so used to seeing myself in a bad way....overweight and fat. I just have to take a deep breath and tell myself the weight didn't come on overnight, it's not gonna go away overnight. I have to trust the scales, not the mirror. Anyway, other than all that I am feeling great! I am walking, and riding a bike, and swimming! How exciting! I am down 32 pounds and you would not believe the world of difference it has already made in my knees and my back. I can actually walk without pain. Love, love, love that! Well I guess that's about it for now. I will check back with you all again soon. Meanwhile, I'm happy in bandland! Have a great day!

Here it is, November 15 already. My work contract is done here the 30th of November, so I will be moving home in just two weeks. I have such mixed feelings about moving home. I miss my hubbie terribly, but on the other hand, I have enjoyed being independant, doing what I wanted, when I wanted, etc. It will be different when I have to consider his wants and needs again. I have been living and working here in California for over a year, and now am moving home again, And this time when I move home I weigh 90 pounds less than I did when I last lived at home. My whole life style has changed! Although I still love to cook and bake, I can't eat like I used to, and the things that I fix are more health geared than ever before. How will my family react to this?