Wow, I here ya , your words of exactly my thoughts too, yesterday I was one month post op and i still am having little regrets, but day by day it does get easier!!!! I keep telling myself that I want to live healthy, I want to see my kids grow up in to adults and have their own familys, when you start feeling low and down just take out a piece of paper and free write all the things you want to do once your weight is down and you are able too, I want to go hiking again and camping in the mountains, I want to fit in a air plane seat confortabley and not have to get a seat belt exstention, I want to fit on carnaval rides again !!!! This isn't easy but we have made our choice and now we just need to take it one day at a time and this to will pass, we once again will and enjoy our food, Keep your head up and shoot me a message anytime !!!!